.:So Deep:.
So Deep is the story about my ever-evolving, often painful relationship with my father. Perhaps stemming from my parents' divorce, I had a lot of resentment towards my dad in high school. More resentment than he deserved.. but as angry as I got, I never lost sight of the fact that he is a man I have a lot of respect for. This is most apparent in the line "the best man I never knew", in that even though I was acknowledging that he and I had grown apart, I was also acknowledging the fact that he has many traits I admire and I hope to live up to. In the past couple years, since he's been working in Turkey, I have begun to realize that he is more important to me than I thought, and much more important than I had shown.
Of interest, the stories I tell in this song are true - my dad was a poor farm boy, who had gone through all of high school and to the best university in Turkey through scholarships and the hard work of his whole family. Despite limiting himself to $2 in meal-money a day, his funds still ran dry. Upon returning to his dorm room from class one day, he found a notice saying he would be asked to leave the university if he did not pay his residence bill by the following day (deadlines are much fiercer in Turkey). This scared him, and he went for a long walk to make plans and to clear his head. Would he tell his parents? Was there any work he could do? When he got home again, he found a new letter, one showing receipt of payment for his residency - paid, in full, by his roommate. If that's not inspiring, flat out, fuck off. I love my dad.
