The first verse basically lets you know where I'm at and explains the past. "Life is nothing but timing and perception", a quote I was proud to have come up with, was my guiding piece of philosophy for the six months that preceded this song. Basically, what I mean by this is that you can find the meaning in any situation by looking at its context alone. The choices you have in life depend on the situation you're in, which depends on the place as we all know, but very specifically it depends on the time you're in. Leaving quantum physics out of this, imagine that two people, perfect for each other in every way, lived and died in the same town on the same street. They never met, never fell in love. Why? One lived and died 50 years before the other. So the choices you have are dependent on the context you live in, from taking a job to starting a relationship to changing the dial on the radio station. Sounds simple enough, right? But add perception and things get more complicated. Psychology teaches that people's perceptions of their own behaviour are decidedly skewed. Extrapolate a little and people's perceptions of the specific workings of their own contexts are skewed. Which one of us knows exactly the workings of their social circle or employment regulations? We don't. Plain and simple. So your perception, when combined with your context, gives you your options in life. And if there is one thing I believe in, it's choice.

so i'll spend another minute, another hour
alone with my big dreams
i've spent my whole life this way somehow
alone with my big dreams

Part of this is taken from Konstantine, a piano based epic emo-pop-punk love song by Something Corporate.

another inspired night
another tearless night
another night that i am feeling like i've wasted myself in all my dreaming
that the stars burned these holes in my eyes for a reason
so baby take away my sight
don't let me see that all these lonely nights and heartfelt tears weren't worth the fight
there's nothing like the taste of bloody tears tonight
and they've never burned my skin or made me blind
yeah baby take away my sight

The second verse is intended to be a description of the present, and more than that, a description of my fear. I like to believe that we only get one shot at life, so we might as well find that one thing that makes us happiest and pursue it (especially if it helps other people, and especially not if it doesn't). But what if I'm wrong? That's what this verse is about. What if I've got no fucking clue what I'm supposed to be doing here, and I've thus wasted the time I've put into becoming who I am?

and all that's left for me is dead now
and it died
because of me
so i'll spend another minute, another hour
alone with my big dreams
i've spent my whole life this way somehow
alone with my big dreams

Building on the part before, this part speaks generically of life's mistakes and past choices

open my eyes and see the sun, see the light
open my eyes to the stars, and the night
cause for the first time in my lonely life
i don't wanna close my eyes
baby don't let me turn away from that sky
i wanna look at you forever
forever in my big dreams

in my big dreams
i want to look at you forever
forever in my big dreams

i have these dreams in them home is where you are
where we take moon lit walks on sundays and laugh by the shore
about the memories i have when i always wanted more
and you sleep by the water while i look up at the stars
and try to find one deep within my heart
that i could pull down for you

and all i ever wanted was some hope to hold onto
and for you to sing along to
me and my big dreams

My favourite part of the song, this is where you find out what my dreams really are. The best I can hope for in this world is to find love in its purest form. I have a restless heart, and I dream of a love that can bring all of its wonder and then add peace of mind and content.

but i've spent my whole life this way somehow
with all these minutes and all these hours
and for what

this is because i can dream and not make dreams my aim
it's to the world that will sing along and never know my name
it's to third eye blind and those nights in my car
where summer died on the water underneath the stars
it's to konstantine and all my sleepless nights
in my room with by big dreams
yeah its to konstantine and every sleepness night
when i ran out of room to live

Continuing with my secondary dreams of ambition. I want to be heard. I would love nothing more than if there were people across the world, or at least Canada, that knew and related to the feelings I express. I thank Third Eye Blind and make reference to Motorcycle Drive By, my favourite song of all time. I thank Something Corporate and reference Konstantine, which is the song that, at the time, first got me on the topic of dreams. Konstantine also lends some of its structure to this song, but not all of it by any means.

this is to the summer that you opened up my eyes
and as blind as i was from the bright city lights
you breathed new life into me and i could see the sky
and for the first time in my lonely life
it was hardly out of reach

Inspired by memories of prospective love.

and all i ever wanted was for you to sing along
with me and my big dreams

this is to the summer that you opened up my eyes
you opened up my eyes
yeah you opened my eyes to the sun, to the light
to the stars and the night
cause for the first time in my lonely life
i don't wanna close my eyes
yeah you opened my eyes to the sun, to the light
opened my eyes to the stars, and the night
cause for the first time in my lonely life
i don't wanna close my eyes
i wanna look at you forever
with me in my big dreams

but i've spent my whole life this way somehow
with all these minutes and all these hours
and for what

this time i know i'll find out

Transition has been accomplished. I thank love for showing me things I had not seen before, and I begin to express a hopeful view of the future.

another peaceful night
another fearless night
another night that i've spent thinking that life is nothing but movement
and direction
and all my life i've been moving to love
so baby let me close my eyes
let me have one last look at these shining skies as if i'll see tomorrow
and i'll decide
there's nothing like the stars that i see tonight
and they've never been like this in any year gone by
yeah baby let me close my eyes
cause with you they burn brighter yeah
with you they burn brighter than i've ever seen

This verse is about finding something you've been looking for your whole life and thanking God you felt all that pain and went through all you did to find it. It is about waking up and finding your senses have gained new life and found even more to be thankful for in the world.

so i'll spend another minute, another hour
with you and our big dreams
i'll spend my whole life this way somehow
with you and our big dreams

and then you open my eyes to the sun and see the light
is it so hard to believe that the stars and the night -
they're like nothing i've ever seen before
and this time i won't close my eyes
baby i'll never turn away from that sky
i wanna look at you forever
forever in my big dreams

and all i ever wanted was for you to sing along
and god you have a beautiful voice

And what happens when you find love? Dreams change, grow, get shared. You know, for all of the discussion this song makes of love, little of it actually refers directly to Nola. Less of it than it would seem. However, the happiness and emotion that brought it all to life.. that I owe directly to her.