this is every day for me
no matter how hard i try
it always comes back to me
to find me sitting, hiding , not wanting the world to see

but

i wish just once
that you would see me
see who i truly am and how fragle my life is to me
to see past the laughs and the thresting shell
to see me for me and nothign else

a wish that will never be granted for me though
i know this but i keep wishing
always never bending
never giving up hope that someday you will understand me
that some day you will want me to show you who i am

but that some day you will never come to for me
its always my friend that have that day
its always the popular ones that never stay alone

the way i long..
never to be alone
never to hurt because i see someone kiss someone else and know that i will never have anything close to it

though

i think it is the longing that hurts the most
the longing that eats away at me..