III.  unpredictable


last week,
she asked me to kiss her.
but i declined.

we've been friends
for a short amount of words--
�how short is short?

�can we count a moon and a crescent?
�can we assess tick-tock over
thum-thum, thum-thum?

our first kissed would've been
in my bedroom
after returning to my mom's apartment

from sunshine theatre where che
swam across the river to meet
his fellow patients in motorcycle diaries;

after my mom cooked us a shrimp dinner;
after my 11 yr. old sis baked us
her chocalate-frosted, yellow cake;

after i met   her (sophisticated--sexy--
jewish) trying to walk pass the bodega
where young hermanos whistled at her and

bolted their mouths when
she jumped in my arms
with a very berry pie

she bought at d'agostino's.
�was it my cool, latino face
and my cap tilted to the left?

real question : �how many people were
making sure, near the end of the night,
i found   her

sitting on the edge of my bed,
eyes humble and strong, wondering
if she should dare disarm herself?

�was it me sitting on my chair
and me taking off my cap, with sunday
now over, grad school tomorrow,

that she still invited me to stay
in the guest room of her college suite?
"i dont have to go."  "no, it's okay."

but a half hour later,
riding up broadway--
�was it street lights humming

to smooth taxi wheels,
or the other way 'round?--
she smiling,

giddy and blushing,
my ear firmly on her sternum,
after an unannounced   yes.

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