| xix. Today Today i told God that i would like to fast from food roam around town meditate on his precepts. i told him how i want to see myself a dozen years from now. By then i hope to be a husband so i could learn how to be a better bride. i want to be a father so i could know how to be a better son. i want to live where he wants me to grow. i want to work where he wants me to water. Originally my prayer began with a deep sigh. i believe i might never again kiss the woman i love today. If i don't ever again, of course it is good. But i pray i pray that God will make himself more known to her, never by my way but His. Even if she is not the one for me, i still pray that she feels God laying his hands on her face kissing her lips replacing her breath with his in a way so sweet so genuine so loving that not even the most compassionate man can do justice. i believe God allows us to call him Father, that he comes to us instead of us jumping hurdles and earning his love. i believe he sent the Child to teach each of us how to be his child, how to wash each other�s feet, how to be his walking poem, that it really is okay to cry. i believe he created the Wholly Spirit to refine our spirits from the inside out, tap stone so water can burst out. In a day where we claim that there are no absolutes, i believe Your way is the most majestical, and the most personal, the most approachable, the most practical, the most rewarding in the long-run, the most dangerous in the short-run, what people find most hard to believe until You touch them. Today i told God that i would like to fast and break it with him. |