I often look back to my childhood years and wonder WHY I didn't do certain
things when the time was right, or WHY I let some things slip. I keep this tiny
black book with me to remind me of my mistakes, but more importantly, to help
me remember the time I was young and free. You only get one childhood -make the
most of it. For only 14 years, I lived on Earth, but in that time, I learnt a
lot, and experienced a lot. This journal still holds many unsolved quests,
along with many unraveled mysteries. Here are just a few of the entries I made
when I was little. Read it all, and take into account everything that 
happens......

 3/18/96-

mom and dad made me start a diary thats so girly!!! i shoodent haf to right
about stuff i shood be out playing games. ill remember this good enuff anyway
whenever something happens i haf to put it in this book

 9/03/96-

when i was a baby mom and dad broke up and dad took joe and mom kept me. but
today mom said dad wasent my real dad and my real dad is dead She also said
that me and joe arnt brothers were stepbrothers. What does that mean the same
mom and dad took care of us but we arnt brothers. i dont geddit

 12/26/96-

yesterday was crissmas and today the famly is getting together to party. me and
joe played a game wear we were fiteing monsters. i said how cool it would be
too fight real monsters and joe said mabee real monsters are out there and
no one has found them yet.

 5/4/97-

i was walking to school today and i found this kid being picked on by some 2nd
graders. i wanted to help him but they looked too tuff. so i hid behind a
heage in a garden and threw a rock at one. he looked round and his 2 friends
followed him. when they were gone i tried to run but it tripped over a can
and made a noise. they started chasing me but the kid pulled me behind a gate
and saved me like i saved him. he said his name is James Gonan and he showed
me a shortcut to school. he is in grade 1 too! we will be friends from now
on.

 7/5/97-

Today i got really scared on the way too school. me and James desided to jump
a fence on the way home but their was a angry dog in the naybors yard. he
barked at us, and we ran to the other side of the yard but he kept chasing us.
I picked up a stick and hit the air in front of him with it, but he tried to
bite me!! James then threw a ball past him and the dog terned to look at it. We
then ran away and got home in one peece. We wont ever go that way home agen!!!

 9/1/97-

i looked at James's name and i saw the first 3 leters say jam. Jam will be his
new nickname from now on. Jam said he is getting a new sega game tommorow so
he will bring the instruction book to school to show me all the levels.

 9/7/97-

i went over to joe's house today and we drew picture's of monster's and then
went outside to pretend we were fiteing them. we said how every monster always
wants to eat us. i made up a new monster that tries to drink you insted!!!

 3/1/98-

me and James have been friends for nearly a year now, but this is the first
time he's ever come over to my house. we played in my treehouse and watched
TV. i started thinking how cool would it be to have a tv in my treehouse?

 4/19/98-

Today James and Joe came over and we all went to Mrs Marron's rabbit farm.
She let us run in the field with all her bunnys. there must have been a
hundred! we chased lots of the smaller ones around for a while then a few
started nibbling at Jams feet!! i shooed some off but then 1 kept coming back.
I chased it away but it was too fast to pick up. when i finaly got it, a bigger
rabit came. i tried picking it up too but i was out of energy. I rested a bit
while Joe tried to pick it up. i then got my energy back and at last i caught
it! hooray!!

 4/20/98-

Im trying to get my mom to buy me a bunny of my own. James talked his parents
into geting him a rabit so if i get one he can become friends with Jam's.

 5/10/98-

Mom finaly got me a rabbit at last! i called him Spiker! James called his
rabbit Thumper but I think Spiker's a better name. Dont you?

 8/29/98-

Joe came over today and we decided to give Spiker a wash. we put sope all over
his back and then tipped a bucket on him. we had to put goggles on him first
so the sopy water wouldnt burn his eyes. it gave me an idea for a story where
thers a evil guy and a rabit with xray glases has to stop him. the rabbit get's
his power from carrotbars and can fly but he cant stop hopping so he has to
hop as he's sleping. and he wacks bad people on the head with a big bag of
moldy grey carrots.

 1/8/99-

it's a very sad day today. i went for a slepover at Joe's house and we had fun
but when i came back home i saw Spiker was gone. me and mom looked all over the
yard since he wasnt in his cage but we couldnt see him anywere. i then walked
out and i saw he was dead on the rode. he had toothmarks on his back so we
think it must be a cat that took him. mom sez he's gone too rabit heven. i
wunder if heven really is real. Shorely you dont just disapear when you die. I
think youd have to go somewere.

 2/6/99-

James's mom put him in a diffrent school this year. Why did she do that??? He
was happy where he was. I know this school sucks but i dont want him to go
somewere else.

 5/10/99-

Mom told me James is moving to california! Why do his mom and dad want to leeve
so bad anyway!? he had friends here. he wont be able to come over anymore cuz
its to far to drive! Nothing good has happend this year. evrythings been
disapointing. I hate my life and i hate this stupid world. I wish i could just
die!

 12/18/99-

Today James came back to Colarado on holiday! This is good, because it gave us
a chance to play one last time before the millenium ends. Thats right! Its only
13 days till its the year 2000. We both talked about what might happen and if
y2k is real or just made up by a bunch of weird people. No one knows yet, but
we think its real. Anyway we played sega for a bit then went outside and talked
in the treehouse. When he left we gave each other our email adresses because
we both have the internet now. I hope he comes again sometime after the year
2000 when there are flying cars and robots.

 1/1/00-

Its the year 2000! This has been like every other new year so far since nothing
has happened yet like those nerds said would. Still its a pritty good time to
be a kid. I hope something special happens this year. I dont think the world
will end though. Earth will be around forever.

 6/5/01-

Fifth grade has been a lot harder than the past few grades, but I think i'm
learning a lot more than I did last year. I'm comfortable in my class, but I
still get too much homework. Doing homework is important though. I need to
study so I can become a scientist, build a time machine, and go back in time to
kill whoever invented homework.

 9/11/01-

When I got home from school today mom was watching the news, so I went into my
room and put on my crappy little portable TV. There was no cartoons on though.
All there was was the news report mom was watching. I flicked the channel, but
the same report was on every station. I then asked mom what was going on, and
she said that two buildings called the "World Trade Center" were crashed into
by 2 planes. They think someone hijacked the plane. They also think this could
be the start of WW3. Some people even think that this is a prediction of the
end of the world. That's just stupid! The world didn't end on the millenium
moment, and it won't end ever. People should stop playing these stupid games.

 4/20/02-

Stupid teachers! Today, I made a paper airplane and started throwing it during
lunch time. In the playground. Nothing disruptive about that, is there?
It then landed in the tree garden (where I spend most of my lunch hours), so
I went to get it. The teacher then yelled at me for throwing paper around.
Seriously, what's up with that?
I was banned from going into the garden for the rest of lunch. I then saw
something shine in the corner of my eye. It was a one-dollar bill! And guess
where it was? That's right, in the garden. I know it'll be gone tomorrow. I said
it before and i'll say it again: stupid teachers!

 4/21/02-

Oh sure, why the hell not? Just one more time. Stupid teachers!

 7/9/02-

I'm always being bullied at school, but today was the first time in years that
I got into a fight. And I ended up loosing, as you would expect.
It was that damn idiot Damien Darnod again! He's been annoying me for near a
month now, and today he and his two equally idiotic friends thought it would
be funny to throw stuff at me. When lunch came, he followed me around until I
insulted him back. Then the wimp got his friends to hold me back while he
punched me in the face. After one punch to the face, he left me be and marched
off as if he actually won a fight.
I went home with a black eye. Mom told me to fight the kid back, but why should
I have to? I'm no superhero, and everyone should stop acting as if I owe the
world something! Next time, i'll just run, like I should have today! It's not
my job to fight for people.

 7/11/02-

Today Joe's dad (who was presumidly my dad until Mom told me the truth) told
me to come over. I did, but instead of playing with Joe, he told me that I was
here to learn self defence. I didn't exactly want to, but he convinced me that
it would help me.
Come to think of it, as afraid to fight as I may be, the idea of unleashing my
wrath on Damien sounds quite fun, but I won't start trouble.

 7/15/02-

For a few days i've been training in self defence. Joe's dad says i'm ready,
and I shouldn't brag about my training to anyone. Whatever you say, Step-Daddy!

 8/6/02-

Last night, I had the wierdest dream. All dreams are crazy since they are so
distant, but this one was especially eerie.
I drempt that I had a diamond sword in my hand. It shone with blue light. I
then looked at a brick wall and it had the words "Your enemy..." written on
it. When I looked back at the sword, it had changed into a TV remote. I then
pointed it at the TV which had somehow appeared in front of me.
When I pushed ON, the screen showed a white haired kid riding on a blue dragon.
Even though it was just a dream, the dragon was one of the most fearsome things
i'd ever seen. The kid seemed to have put his absolute trust in it, though.
What a mental dream.

 8/14/02-

Man, you should have seen me today! Damien and his friends tried to bash me
again, but this time I was ready! Just as he was ganging up on me, a bunch of
other kids that had been pushed around by him before came in to help!
They took on his friends, and it was just me, and Damien. He tried to whack
me, but I was a punching, dodging, fighting machine! We fought for a whole
minute, but after I had him on the ground, I decided to call my allies off.
The whole school was watching, and I know they wanted to see a good fight, but
there IS no such thing as a good fight. We'll all get suspended for this, and
Damien didn't feel the pain he deserves, but he won't bother me again. Plus,
I encouraged kids to stand up to bullies more often.
As much as I enjoyed being on top, I don't want to ever fight again. This just
isn't me. I'm sure this won't be my last brawl ever, but i'll at least try to
soak in the taunts from now on. Trying is all we can do....