I'm a train wreck,
I'm twisted and I don't recall
making my way up this hill.
It's not just
a matter of time.
Are you worth
a second look?

Know what,
screw this,
I hated our first kiss.

Doesn't matter anyway,
doesn't help me dull the pain.
I'm too much of all this,
just a fight, just a feint
heartbeat in the middle of the night.

Faint light,
double sight
Paid my bill
I'll take this pill.

I sit and stare,
I solo to the wrong tempo
'cause I never learnt to dance.
Field of vision washed away,
scared to find my way.

I cannot cry
I can only lie
here I am
a bottle filled by rain.

I only know to keep on
keeping on
stumbling because I can't wake up
from the terror of each night.

I'm a barren sandstone wall
and I'm crumbling
with the pressure,
love's intersection:
This might be
my body's final insurrection,
monthly mystery,
someone hold on to me.

Faint light,
double sight
Paid my bill
I'll take this pill.

Admiration's handy
to my handmade enemy.
Cruel comfort
in this darkroom.
I'm determined not to be
the symbol of your sympathy.

Deadbeat, dispassionate,
I'm an indifferent traveler,
a spaced-out cowgirl
cracking my first whip.

I slammed into reality,
misplaced serenity.
I'm nothing but trouble,
a blurred umbrella
bending in the updraft
of a lifetime,
maybe, baby.

I stopped listening,
I bit down on the gag.
Mistake me for your maker,
I'll learn to walk the line,
reclaim what was mine
the taste of tonic wine.

Faint light,
double sight
Paid my bill
I'll take this pill.