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| Here you will find many of my gibberish writings ... and some of my favorites that I have collected over the years. Enjoy! |
| How I long to succumb to sleep. To enter a world of my own where I can live out my dreams and fantasies. How I long to allow my eyelids to drift downward and my breathing to go shallow. To become a part of the dream world where anything is possible. To leave behind me the trials and errors of my hum-drum life. To allow my darker side to take hold and allow it a chance to shine - a chance to toss all inhibitions to the wind with carelessness. ~Raven |
| Darkness falls - only a single candle is lit to make way for the shadows to perform their macabre dance along the walls. The sickening sweet aroma of roses, sweat and blood penetrate my body as I inhale deeply. Walking towards the bed I see you - lying there in a death-like slumber. You look like an angel. Your flowing dark hair spills about your face and on the soft pillow like some sort of halo. Your lips are slightly swollen from the forceful kisses that were laid upon them. Peering closer to you I am now able to inspect the evidence left behind of our dance of love. Tiny amounts of blood are pooled about your wrists and your ankles where you were bound. Bite and claw marks are slowly taking their shape as well now on your neck, chest and abdomen. Ah how I treasure these moments. The calm after the storm of our fits of passionate rage. It is times such as these that I wish that I could make time stop and keep you just like this. At peace. Serene. Thoroughly loved and forever mine. But soon the cursed sun will rise and you shall be gone from me ... But only until the next time our worlds collide my love ... ~Raven |
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| I love you in a dark way... Not like the flowers love the sun, But like the night loves the stars. |
| If in the night, I wish to speak with the angel to find out if he recognizes my eyes If he will ask me: do you see Eden? And I'll reply: Eden burns I offer my lips to him, so cold, as if he does not know desire and the angel asks: do you feel life? And I'll reply: life hurts ~Rilke |
| I can see your face - I can hear you calling to me ... Calling me to come and find shelter in your eternal arms ... Buf if I choose this path with you now - I shall never be able to return to this place. So many choices and so many decisions to be made. All I wish for is the pain to go away - if only for a mere moment. ~Raven |
| Here is comes ... That same bittersweet darkness that has embraced me several times before. Slowly and quietly it falls upon me and envelopes me with it's cold adoration. I find myself powerless to fight its empty promises of rest, peace and solitude. Once again I sink myself into its sinewy arms and watch as everything else around me drifts away. With time my thoughts and cares seem to evaporate into nothingness. A single tear falls from my eye and is accompanied by all of my hopes and dreams for this life. As time goes by I will be but a portion of a memory long gone. ~Raven |
| Please release me from this torture in my heart A heart that has already suffered its fair share of heartache and pain I long for the moment when my heart will be free. Free from the bondage that this world has placed upon it. Free to love and be loved without fear or persecution. A moment when the real me is given the chance to come out of hiding from the shadows of my own prison. ~Raven |
| When all else is lost...all that remains in unruly rage. An anger that is embedded deep into the core of my being and slowly begins to consume every cell and nerve ending in my body. With every tick of the clock time goes by and with it my reigns on my own sanity and the ability to have control over this madness that has me in its grip. Maliciously it squeezes my soul to the point of annihilation. Muscles, bones and tissues ache under the constant pressure. My mind struggles to maintain conscienceness and function normally. One by one the tiny threads that manage to make this being react dissolve and now there is nothing left... ~Raven |
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| Staring out of despondent blue eyes I gaze out at all that surrounds me. Surveying everything for a small spark of enlightenment to bring me back to life. When will I find what would sate my every desire? Does it even exist? Daily I scan for what I pray is out there and what will be my souls salvation. Like marionettes people around me scurry about their obsolete lives. Constantly murmuring about their woes. When will they open up their indifferent eyes and unsusceptible minds? To thirst for more than is visible with the naked, mortal eye? To hunger for something more thatn their daily routine has to offer? To break away from the mold? To dare to seek out that which their innermost being and heart long for. Despairingly each day passes making way for another - filled with even more questions left unanswered and more ethereal appetites unsatisfied. Hopefully they will find it - Hopefully I will find it. Until that moment comes I shall forever let these eyes and this body remain and wander throughout the darkness. ~Raven |
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