Spike crushed out the remainder of his cigarette in the chipped
bowl that hed been using as an ashtray, before sprawling back down on the
sofa. The day had started out fairly well, seeing his boy off to work. Hed managed to get the boy all flushed and embarrassed, before
sending him away for the day. His Xander was surprisingly pretty when he
blushed. A lovely rosy colour would rush up his entire face and those big brown
eyes would inevitably focus on the floor. The boy was definitely a born
submissive. Harris had always been more of a follower than a leader from what
hed seen. In all honesty despite the master vampires reservations, things really couldnt have turned out better for him. The whelp was by far the
easiest of the slayerettes for him to control. Course his boy also had a wicked
stubborn streak, but winding him up was half the fun. Spike was quite convinced
that his Kitten was fair superior to any of the other alternatives.
The red headed witch, though quite lovely, was growing more and
more unstable by the moment. He was almost relieved that hed been unable to make good on his threat to turn her. The Devil
only knew what she would do next. Still running off the high of resurrecting
Buffy, the chit was rapidly spinning out of control. He only hoped that the
Watcher would be able to talk some sense into the girl before she did something
irreparable. That was if the old bugger decided to stay on the Hellmouth and
not turn tail and run, again.
Now the other witch, the vampire wasnt certain about. He had a feeling though that the blonde witch
would have been a problem as well. Glinda wasnt half as timid as she made herself out to be.
An infinitesimal part of Spike liked to think that hed played a role in that. Shed quietly grown more and more confident since
learning that she was in fact human and not the monster that she and all the
womenfolk in her family had always been painted as. He could see a time in the
future when the birds family would live to regret their deception, if not from Tara,
then likely her former paramour. This was another reason the blonde girl would
have made a poor pet in the long run. Taking her would very likely have sent
the little redhead into a right tizzy. Not to say that she didnt care deeply for Harris, but shed faced off with a Hell God for the blonde girl.
Hed seen the beginnings of what Willow Rosenburg could do in a
rage and had no real desire to push her over the edge. Neither of the witches
were good choices as companions.
The demon girl had been interesting to have a go with, and might
even have made an interesting partner in crime. He was certain that the two of
them could have done some damage together in the days before the chip. Spike,
however, was quite certain that after a week with her as his plaything, that hed be ready to stake himself. Anyanka was too pushy to ever make
a good slave. Besides there was something about a lady whod spent the better part of a millennia making blokes dangly bits
fall off that would turn even a vampire off eventually.
Now his little Nibblet he was surprisingly ambivalent about. He
knew that he adored her and could well make her into his new dark princess. He
couldnt say with total certainty that he wouldnt do so should the chip ever become ineffective. Of course, in
doing so, the teenager that had half-adored him would be destroyed. His Little
Bits innocence gone forever. Replaced by a similar, but different
creature that wore his sweet young friends face. He wasnt deluded enough to not realize it would eventually happen
anyway. The teenager would grow into a woman; she was already half way there.
She was becoming a beautiful young lady, her once gangly and awkward limbs,
becoming light and graceful. Physically she reminded him of a lighter haired
Drusilla. He was fairly confident that he was the only one that could see it.
The others still considered her a little girl, never mind that Red, the slayer
and of course his Kitten were all already protecting the Hellmouth by the time
they were her age.
Still there was a part of him that still thought of himself as
the girls protector. Till the end of the world. On some level
taking Dawn would have been strange, and unnatural. Wrong. He growled, pushing
that silly idea out of his head. Hello, he was evil! E-V-I-L. Hed been around the bloody Scooby gang too long, he sighed
standing up and stretching. He was a vampire, yet hed let himself become infected by these children and their silly
ideas. Maybe Dru had been right. He snarled angrily to himself, reaching across
the coffee table for his cigarettes and lighter. With agility borne out of
years of practice he pulled a fag out and lit it in one fluid motion.
This contemplation was useless. Who cared what might have been
with the others? The boy was his, to use in anyway he saw fit. The vampire
smiled remembering the previous weekend. He hadnt felt this good in ages. Just remembering the
feel of his boy, so sweet and tight, clamped around him was making him hard
again. Bloody Hell! His pet wouldnt be home for a couple of hours yet. Hed just have to wile away the hours deciding exactly what hed do with his dark haired toy once he got home. Right now
though, Spike was having difficulty focusing on anything beyond shagging the
whelp silly. He wanted to plunge into the male Scooby the moment he walked
through the door.
Hed have to be careful not to damage his pet though. He did
secretly worry about just how far he could take his brown eyed beauty. Mortals were fragile, brittle things. Press a
little too hard here, pound a little too forcefully there and all his fun would
be over. So hed have to be creative with his tormenting of the boy. Hed tried a great deal of the tamer stuff that he and Dru had
gotten into over the years, but knew there wasnt much more left to draw from that well. Problem
was, he wasnt used to human sex, let along, sex with a human bloke. His
experiences with his Grandsire, well those were better left in the past.
Truth was, most of his experience was with women, mostly Dru, in
fact. Well of course Buffy and sadly Harm, but the time hed spent with them hardly seemed to compare to a century with
Drusilla. Hed been a virgin when hed been turned. A couple of his friends had tried to drag him
to a brothel once as part of a cruel prank, but nothing had come of that. They
had been most amused when their little escapade had yielded the expected
result, young William being utterly scandalized and rushing home to Mother. The
entire episode had left the Victorian both confused and aroused.
In any event, all three of the relationships had been bizarre.
Drusillas sexual appetites and tastes had been brutally moulded at the
hands of her maker and Spike had been able to do nothing in over a century to
change that. Not that the blond minded a little rough bed sport form time to
time. Only, there had been times when the blond had wanted to track down his
Grandsire and send the bastard to Hell were he belonged. Only the fear that Drusilla
might take a stroll in the garden at midday without him to watch over her, had
prevented him from starting off on the fool quest some nights. The sheer
devastation of what that wanker had done to his Dru, made even a creature thatd gotten his name torturing his victims with railroad spikes,
shudder. Yet time and time again his black hearted beauty had returned to her
sire, if not in reality, then at the very least in her mind. That had always
been the hardest for Spike, when Dru needed him to play Angelus. Needless to
say his Xander didnt have the physical fortitude for those kinds of games. Hed played them though, time and time again for over a century;
been everything that she needed, only to be cast aside when the genuine article
had triumphantly returned.
His relationship with Harm, strangely enough, was probably his
most normal relationship, hampered only by the fact that he couldnt stand the bloody annoying chit. Shame though, the sex had
actually been pretty good. Unfortunately hed felt next to nothing for the newly turned
teenaged girl. The only thing he could see improving that farce of a liaison
was the silly bint becoming mute.
He didnt even know how to classify the train wreck that had been his
relationship with Buffy. He still couldnt believe that hed told her about Cecily. Of course being the sensitive soul that
she was, shed turned that against him. It wouldnt be you, Spike. It could never be you. Youre beneath me. Oh yes,
paragons of virtue, these white hats. Have someone confide in you, share their
most intimate secrets with you and then turn around and stab them in the heart
with them. Still didnt stop her from asking for his help. She hadnt asked his boy, the watcher or the witch. When it came down to
protecting that which was most precious to her, she had come to him. I'm
counting on you ... to protect her. Love sick fool that he was, hed agreed. Till the end of the world. Even if that happens to
be tonight. Hed been a fool to think any of that would mean anything to his
ladylove.
Even after her death hed continued to honour that promise, patrolling with the Watcher
and the children. Hed been their only real muscle aside from the Buffybot. The
robot, though a technological marvel, still behaved far too erratically to be
trusted to protect his Nibblet. The slayers little sister was the only part of Buffy he had left and he
wasnt about to leave her unguarded. Besides hed promised.
After the foolish children had brought Buffy back from the
grave, hed been the one shed turned to. The only one she felt able to share her feelings
with. Hed been so sodding happy at the time. His girl was finally
connecting to him. The sad truth was he was the only one she had not been
afraid of hurting with the truth of what they had really done to her. If he
still believed for one moment that it was because he hadnt had any part in bringing her back, he could have lived with
that. He would have been able to accept that without regret.
He wasnt the only one who hadnt participated in the idiocy of resurrecting their fallen
comrade, though. She could have gone to the Watcher. She should have called
him. Wouldnt the old boy have been the most logical place to go for
guidance? Problem was, she cared for the old man. Shed known the knowledge would break the Englishmans heart. So shed gifted her secrets to Spike, he was in love
with her, and would keep her confidence. He was a dead thing, his feelings
unworthy of consideration; hed just been too much of a fool to realize it at the time. Hed actually thought that they were bonding.
Perhaps having the entire house fall around them when they had
shagged the first time should have given him an inkling of the girls true feelings or possibly the fact that his lover had insisted
on absolute secrecy? Hed known that he was only a means to an end, a way for the
disengaged young woman too feel again. Even so, hed let her seek him out, time and time again, so that she could
make herself feel once more. That is until she decided that shed had her fill, that shed indulged in her slumming long enough.
Then it had been goodbye Spike, your company and presence are no longer
required, thanks so much for being a good sport, now run along like a good lad
and dont let the door hit you on the arse on the way out. His little
golden heroine had used prettier words though. Im using you. I cant love you. Im just
being weak, and selfish
and its killing me. Im sorry
William. Cast aside
like so much rubbish. Now didnt that little tune sound familiar somehow? He was loves bitch all right.
But then, then Spike had committed the most heinous crime, hed found some comfort with some one else. How dare he! That wasnt for him; no he was supposed to wait on standby in case the
stupid bint changed her mind and decided she needed his services again.
The look shed given him outside the magic shop. Hed thought he was going to have it out with her one and for all
right there in the street, but then shed just walked away. Not having spared him a second glance. He
snarled angrily at the memory. Angelus, Drusilla, Buffy, Hell even Harmony, in
the end they always left. Not his Kitten though, the young man was his, would
never abandon him. Because he cant, an annoying little voice that sounded suspiciously like that
tart Cecily whispered in the back of his mind.
What Spike needed was a good stiff drink. The immortal punk
snuffed out what was left of his cigarette, stood up and made his way to the
kitchen, going straight to the Cupboard over the sink. There was beer in the
icebox, but at the moment the hyperactive vampire was in need of something more
potent. Hed been surprised to find that his pet actually had a decent
liquor cabinet this morning when hed unpacked his things. Probably Anyas influence, the birds were all about dinner parties and
entertaining these days. Couldnt have a proper dinner party without some nice cocktails, now
could you? Fine with him, just meant more booze for the blokes. Hmmm, rum,
gin, tequila, bourbon
whiskey, that should do nicely, Spike decided
pulling out a nearly full bottle. He quickly uncapped the bottle, drinking down
a sizable gulp, and not bothering with a glass.
Hed managed to empty a good third of the bottle when he was interrupted
by someone insistently pounding on the flats door, hard enough to make the dishes in the
cupboards shake precariously. Spike recognized the scent before his
visitor ever said a word. Hed been drenched in that smell often enough over the past few
months. If he hadnt been drinking, she never would have gotten to door before he
detected his ex-lovers unique fragrance.
Open
the door Spike or I swear Ill kick it down, The
Slayer demanded angrily, still beating her fist against the door. He considered
just leaving her out there, but decided against it. Sighing, he slid the chain
out of its track and unlocked the door.
That
would just end up coming out of Harris security deposit, you realize? He smirked, leaning against the
doorway, attempting to look nonchalant.
We
need to talk Spike, the petite young woman declared, brushing past him.
I thought we had nothing left to talk about, luv. You made that
achingly clear, he snapped, slamming the door behind them.
Spike
she began, obviously trying to contain her anger. Well, no self respecting vampire could allow that, not that he could
still be considered self respecting. Sodding Hell, the bloody drink was making
him positively maudlin.
Did
you change your mind and decide you wanted
another tumble? He leered, stopping short of calling her pet. It seemed wrong now somehow,
which was silly, it wasnt as though it was an honour that should be reserved for the
boy.
Dont be disgusting, I came to talk, Spike. Actually no, I know that
appealing to your sense of decency wont do any good, she sniffed in obvious disdain.
Dont have any, ducks, he smirked in what he hoped was his best
parody of his former self. Stupid bird, how dare she come here and dredge up
all these feelings. As if her presence was required for that, the Cecily
voice taunted.
Believe
me, I know. Ive come to negotiate, Buffy replied in obvious distaste.
Negotiate? Would Slayer and company never get the point? There
was no way for them to get male slayerette out of this. Circumventing the
bargain, would collapse the orbs power, sending the world into chaos.
For
my friend, tell me what it will take to make you leave Xander alone? Did the
stupid bint really think there was anything
that would buy him off? Did she think any amount of power or money would buy
back the devotion that hed once felt for her? Could she even conceive of adoration so
powerful that it had caused him to try and change his very nature for her?
Buffy had no idea what shed thrown away. Hed tried to become a white hat for her, but nothing had been good
enough. Still he was
beneath her.
Well, he had better now. A warm, soft body his for the taking,
completely subject to his whims. It was time for someone to see to him, long past
time. Hed spent his entire existence looking after everybody elses
needs, always putting himself second. It
was finally his turn! As if hed even consider giving that up!
Nothing,
the carpenter is mine and I have no intention of
giving him up. Hes a right sweet shag and as you can see, thanks to him my
circumstances have improved, Spike waved in the general direction of the
apartment. Though the effect would have been better, had he managed to
redecorate. Really, who had tools hung up in the living room?
I
could have the chip removed, she whispered knowingly,
attempting to entice him.
What?
Do you think Im stupid? Do you think I
havent tried, Slayer? the master vampire snarled furious.
I
have access to resources that you dont. Im still in contact with Riley, his people know more about the
chip than anyone on the planet. I could persuade him to have it removed, the
little vixen tempted.
Captain
Cardboard would never allow it. Hed never
allow me to run free, capable of harming humans, Spike snapped dismissing the idea.
Hed do it for me, his hazel eyed former obsession insisted.
Not
anymore he wouldnt. I think youre overestimating your own importance, sweet. Cornbread has a
new lady now, one that doesnt use him to get off while thinking of Angel. Besides did it not
occur to you that that would have been the very first thing that I would ask
for? Returning me to my former glory wasnt an option the Powers would even consider. You have nothing to
offer me, girl, he hissed. The statement was mostly true.
Not
even myself? Buffy offered, moving
into her former adversarys personal space.
What? He seemed to be asking that over and over. He knew he must be
blinking stupidly, his surprise evident.
Ill give you what you want Spike, me, back in your bed. I know
you still want me. I know you miss me. Miss us, she offered, moving to rub
against him. Yes part of him did still want it. Bollocks, in truth, it had been
the first thing that he had asked for. How pathetic had he become that he
wouldnt ask to be restored first? That should have been his first
thought, but no he would have been willing to remain as he was, neutered and
impotent, in order to have her again, but not any longer.
Would
you do that? Would you play the whore for me? Let me tie you down and shag you
in his place? Would you whimper for me like he does? Let me tease you, caress you until youre almost at the point of no return, only to
stop and leave you there, aching in frustrated misery? Spike was trying to be vicious, but honestly it sounded too
much like the games that he and the chosen one had been playing not so long
ago. Difference was even when hed been the one in control shed still held all the power.
Yes,
she whispered, her beautiful eyes filling with
tears. Shed do it too. Wouldnt that just give her a merry excuse to keep things going with
good old Spike? He thought taking a long swig out of the bottle hed almost forgotten hed been holding. He wiped his mouth angrily with the back of his
hand. Shed be able to keep using him to get her jollies and be all
self-righteous and noble about it.
Too
bad Im no longer interested, he growled scornfully. Besides you cant force me to give up my claim on Harris, not by threats, not by
force, not even by bribery. it would destroy the magic of the orb, turn it into
a paper weight. Its the mystical keystone to the gateway leading into this
dimension, without it the walls of this universe would collapse. You cannot
knowingly interfere, girl. No outside influence can break Xanders connection to me.
You
said you loved me, she begged sounding desperate.
I
did. I fought by your side, defended your loved ones, and looked after them even after you were gone, but none of
that was ever good enough for you. Im nothing to you, he barked angrily.
Dont you understand thats why I had to stop it, Spike? I couldnt keep doing that to either of us, she pleaded, asking for his understanding.
Shut
up! Stopping had nothing to do with me! Dont you stand there and pretend you ended it for my benefit. It
was you. Always been all about you. Your pain, your frustration, your anger.
You couldnt take it out on your saintly friends, but it was fine to take
it out on me. It was fine to make use of me as a sympathetic ear, a fuck toy, a
punching bag, whatever you were in the mood for. You knew how I felt, you knew
I wouldnt say no to you. I let
you, over and over again. Do you know what that was like? Well not any more,
he was yelling now. The neighbours could probably hear them, hopefully no one
was calling the police.
Spike,
I
she began, only to stop. What could
she really say to that? The absolute anguish on her face almost made him want
to reach out and comfort her. Please Xander didnt do anything. If youre angry at me, then take it out on me. What youve just
described me doing to you, thats almost exactly what youre doing to Xan and he doesnt deserve that.
He
made his choice. He willingly turned himself
over to me, Spike answered defensively.
At
least let us see him then, just to make sure hes all right, the young woman requested anxiously.
Sod
off. Hes just bloody peachy, learning all about the
joys of sodomy. Now get out! the vampire rumbled mockingly.
Spike
the shorter woman appealed, reaching out for him. He
immediately stepped back, out of her reach.
I told the watcher and now Im telling you. Stay away from me and my pet. I
swear if you dont leave within the next 30 seconds, Ill start packing this place up and move myself and the boy out
of Sunnydale, tonight. Ill take him from his job and that useless drunken excuse of a
family and move us half way around the world where you will never find us.
Spike threatened. He really hoped that it wouldnt come to that, but if the Scoobies didnt stop he would be left with no other alternative.
No, Buffy cried. Tears falling unashamedly down her lovely face.
29,
28, 27
Spike counted, trying to control his pain and
his anger. He was through bowing down too her.
No,
Spike Ill go, please. Ill go, she pleaded raising her hands in an
attempt to calm his rage. She shook her head on the way out the door, hugging
herself. Spike, I know youre angry with me right now, but please, please think before you
take this out on him when he gets back tonight, she said turning to face him one last time.
He slammed the door angrily behind her, locking it as if that
would prevent her from getting back in if she so chose. Sod it. Hed finished the last bit of the whiskey. He was going to need
another bottle.