So scared you wet your pants, or worse you couldn't even scream.
I have been that scared........ Like a deer caught in the headlights.
I wanted to run, to scream, to hide.
Ever been angry? I mean truly seethingly angry........
So painfully angry you saw nothing but red.
I have seen that red..... like a vein popping in my head...
I wanted to hurt something, to destroy, and cause pain.
Have you ever felt love? A love so deep and binding you thought nothing could end it?
A wonderful butterfly feeling in your stomach whenever you're with that person.
I have felt that way before....... and will possibly again.
I wanted to jump, to shout from rooftops, To dance with joy.
Have you ever felt hatred........ a hate so powerful you were blinded by it?
A loathing so great the sight of the person made you nausious.
I have done that, felt the hate boiling from my core.
I wanted that person gone from the earth, to be removed from my sight forever.
Have you ever felt happy..... truly satisfied and content?
A warm fuzzy feeling, that is quite inexplicable.
I have been there more than once, just beaming from ear to ear.
I wanted to never lose that feeling, to stay that way forever without an end.
Have you ever been lonely........... wanting to belong?
To a group, to someone, just needing to be needed.
I have felt that way before.... like a lost lamb looking for a flock.
I wanted to curl up in a ball and cry, to scream my pain out, I would have settled for anyone.
Have you ever had emotions that strong? Strong enough to see, smell, and taste?
Fear, anger, love, hate, happiness, loneliness.
I have seen them all up close and personal, and I wish I never had.
I want to have no feelings at all, to feel nothing, to never be hurt, to be a robot.
- Michelle Wetmore