MELISSA FLEWELLING
9/13 
6:24 pm
Uncertaninty ~ for Joshua

I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to say.
I don't know if I should go
Or grit my teeth and stay.

One minute all seems perfect,
All is well with this, the worls --
But in the next my heart is shattered,
Banner of true feelings unfurled.

With my mind in disbelief,
and my heart in deepest pain
All I can think to do is sit,
Close my eyes, and see your name

As it races 'cross my memory
Sending shivers down my spine
Then coupled with your face,
Your smile, your bright blue eyes which shine

Their light into my soul
Bringing sunshine to my day
Their brilliance, though not ment for me,
Leaves me with nothing left to say.
9/15
1:21 am
Untitled

Every person has his or her own problems
To deal with
To understand
Including me.

I need to release
To tell someone what is on my mind
But who?

Every person has their own problems
To deal with
To understand

Why would they want my burdens
On top of their own?

Rather than distancing friends
By sharing too much
I hold everything inside

So when the time or greatest need
Arrives
Someone will be there to listen.
10/26/00
1:15 pm
For Joshua

Feelings of the past,
Like a sniper --
Lurking in the shadows
Seeking to destroy,
Kill and destroy
The sentiments of today.

One look,
One world --
One bullet fired
Its aim straight and true
Rendering me hopeless --
Hopelessly in love,
Hopelessly taken in
By every look,
Every word.
Losing myself
In your eyes,
In your smile --
In you.


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11/10
4:09 am
~ For Jason

Three words
A whisper screaming in my ear,
A silence pounding through my being,
The knowledge permeating my heart --
Washing over me like the summer tide,
Quick to pull me into the oceans's throw.
I fall to pieces inside
All because
I love you.
1/20/01
4:20 am
Why
Why do I make you cry
How
How do I open up what's inside
You love me, upholding,
I hurt you, unknowing.
No
You deserve so much more than
Me
Who leaves you lifeless, bleeding, sore
Why do you stay
Why can't you see
The more that you stay
The more hurt you receive
From me
1/21/01
3:10 am
The questions in my heart
Crying in the dark
Reaching out for someone who's not there

Thoughts from others pound my brain
Changing mine to the same
Make me realize you don't even care.

I hand you my soul
You put me on hold
" I'm too busy to talk to you today"

Why do you even bother
Keeping me around
What is it for

Was it so wrong of me
To think I was yours
I can't take this anymore


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