i've thought about you quite often 
unusual though in its freedom      
you provoke me
in your calmness                 
knowing you must rage
to think of wasted energy  
spent in reaching
and plotting
all those things that take away     
being          you are very present   
i thank you                  
as attracted as i am to you        
there is no desire
     dissatisfaction       clinging     
my expectations of human interaction
have       been      heightened 
to encourage provocation and learning
  i believe you          when you
do not flatter me         
thank you
                      
i can't describe
how
i know you
an image
deep
clear
breathing
a picture i
can't quite paint
but see clearly
know
between bones and flesh
i feel you
familar
and so different
i   f a l l   i n   l o v e   e v e r y d a y
a   s c r a p i n g   o f   u n e x p e c t e d     t e x t u r e s
a   t a s t e  
o f   s a l t   i n   c i t y   a i r
a   c u r l   b r u s h i n g
u p o n   b l u s h e d   e y e l i d
s i n k s   m e
i   d i v e
i n t o   a   p o o l   o f   l a n g u i d
t r u t h
m e l t i n g   f r o m   t h e   s m e l l   o f   i t
e v e r y   d a y
i   k e e p   m y   h a n d s   p r e s s e d   t o   m y   s i d e s
a s   i f   r e a c h i n g
w o u l d   m a k e   t h e   s h i m m e r i n g   s p e c t a c l e
w i n k   a n d   f a d e
w i t h   t h e   p a s s i n g   o f   b r e a t h
oxygen is mine

but there's no holding on

it feeds me, fills me
gives me life.

it passes out through
my nostrils,

there can be no mourning
.

i feel like a house
lit
nervous keepers fluttering
in indecision
whether or not to pull
the shades
i see a kitchen full of food
beds full of children
beds full of earth and fire
i feel like a temple
lit
with prayers and sacrifice
rejoicing in ritual
dancing in celebration
weeping in gratitude
eyes wide open
like windows with shades
all up


i n t o   t h e   e t h e r   a r e   t i t s   a n d   a s s
h a i r s   k n o t t e d   i n   p l a s t i c   o r a n g e
w i t h e r e d   a r m s   o f   a   p r e t e e n   s o f t n e s s
d e t e r m i n e d   b u l g e   b e t w e e n   m o u n t   o f   h i p
e a r s   s t i l l   s t i n k   l i k e   d i r t y   c u n t
a   t a n l i n e   t h e   s h a p e   o f   a   s h o e
h i p s   a n d   w a i s t   a r e   c u r v e d   a n d   s h a r p
t e e t h   g l e a m i n g   t o b a c c o   h u e
c u t   t o   t h e   q u i c k   a r e   f i n g e r n a i l s
m o u n t a i n   l e g s   m u s c l e d   a n d   s l i m
i t ' s   a   d i f f e r e n t   b o d y   i ' m   t a k i n g   b a c k
a n   a l t e r e d   m i n d   a n d   h e a r t
t h e   l i m i t   o f   t h e s e   i s   a n   u n k n o w n   s u m
t h e   f l o w   s h i f t s   s ud d e n   a n d   s l o w
t h e r e   i s  n o t h i n g   t o   s a y   t h a t   i s   t r u e
e v e n   t h a t   b e   f a l s e
i t ' s   n o t   a   g a m e ,   b u t   i t ' s   n o t   r e a l i t y
o f   c o u r s e ,   i t ' s   o n l y   t h e s e
a l l   i n   a l l   i t ' s   a   n o t e   to   s e l f
a   c a r o u s e l ,   m i r r o r s   a n d   m u s i c
a   n a p   c o m i n g   o r   e n d i n g
a   d r e a m   u n f o l d i n g  ,   a    m e s s a g e   b e i n g   s e n t
t h i s   n o t h i n g   c o n n e c t e d   w i t h   e v e r y t h i n g
a   p e r f e c t   m a r r i a g e   o f   i s / n o t   i s
t h e y   c o m p l e t e   e a c h   o t h e r
w i t h o u t   d i s t i n c t i o n
a l l   i s   o n l y   o n e .

:::smooreboox:::

:::fall2002rantings:::

:::heroes:::
today is nothing like yesterday even if so it seems
it cannot possibly resemble tomorrow though
this
may seem neverending
it's not
ah but it is indeed then and always all the same stuff
nothing new is ever possible
a different mixture of the very same

bringin it in
through the machine of our very own mechanism
of this same very same as your own
so different our -so
call it me
this maze our input travels
these digestive bowels
one unique labyrinth
  ~ light leaking through my pores on a fine day-             
call that yours~
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