i've lost that twinkle
i used to see,
deep within myself,
where could it be?
these eyes gone blank
from pain, so numb,
where have i gone?
what have i done?
all colour is lost,
all things blur grey,
how much longer
must i live this way?
i can't get it back,
so i'll just let it be
have mercy, dear god,
destroy this, destroy me.