yeah, so... may's almost over already! one whole entry for may! yeah, so my month of may has been pretty fucked up. speaking of fucked up, i've been doing quite a bit of partying lately which is always lots of fun. i hardly remember last weekend at all. so um.. yeah, i moved last weekend, and my computer's all fucked up from the move, so i haven't really had the chance to do much online lately. but now i'm going to take this opportunity to go off on a tangent about my new house. first of all, the 74 acres is always nice. the 1/2 mile long driveway isn't especially nice. the 100 year old farmhouse isn't my idea of living it up. it's waaay too small, and i always feel dirty. i'm not really that much of a city chick, but still. blech. there's one bathroom for the six of us which blows, and guess who's the last one to get up in the mornings for shower time?!? lots of cold showers for me from now on. then, i guess there's a coyote around and i'm afraid it'll eat my kitties! then, while we were moving, my computer got fucked up, and i've only checked my email today.. once in over a week. that's always depressing when you've only received one email in over a week. i'm feeling the love. so, i've been sleeping on a matress of the floor for the past 9 days now. i miss my waterbed.. okay, i think that'll suffice for now. but anyway, tomorrow's my last day of high school ever. i'm so fucking happy to be getting out of there. i can't even express how much i hate that place, how much i hate going there, and how much i hate the people there. so yeah, one more day. hooray!!
as for my mental state these last few weeks, i've been so incredibly busy i haven't really had the chance to stop and assess my feelings. i'll be getting a fat ass check this week though. but um.. brandyn and i had a rather enjoyable night last week. i told him i'd call, but i didn't get home until 4 in the morning that day, soo.. he probably hates me now. i've been feeling fairly stable lately, i think.. how unusual is that? i haven't cut in quite some time now, but i fantasize about it often. i think i'm just really anxious for summer to be here so i can spend these last few months with my friends before they all go off to college. i've decided where i'm going to college, and i plan on living there for the first year. i think i'll be glad to be away from my family for a while and experience what it feels like to be responsible for myself. yeah, so.. i could probably go on much, much longer, but i think i'll stop here.