well, today's my unbirthday and, well.. no one remembered. ::sigh::

so i've been planning for a few weeks now what exactly i'd like to send to emma over in the u.k. i've decided i'm definitely sending her one of my copies of the bell jar along with my favourite lines and quotes hilighted and so forth, and two cds including sarah mclachlan's 'fumbling towards ecstasy' and nine inch nails' 'the fragile.' possibly a few pictures... i can't really think of anything else at the moment.. i figure i'll think of something if i try hard enough.

i haven't seen chirsty, or talked to her, in almost a week! i miss her.. i've been working too much to really socialize with any of my friends. i haven't had a day off work since monday. ::grumble:: i hate work. by the time i get another day off, i'll have worked 7 days straight, er.. 7 days in a row (hehe, christy)i figure that if i want to work that much, i'll get a real fucking job.

things have been weird lately, as i've been acting incredibly peculiar, even for me. i think i'm just really lonely or something. whenever i'm near friends, i can't describe how grateful i am just to have them in my company. i'm such a loser.

ashley hasn't talked to me in a week or two now.. i called her a week or so ago, left a message on her cell, and she never called back. i haven't really tried since then, and neither has she. she's been seeing this jason guy.. her mom's friend's bother who's 24, i think. he's cool. i miss her though and hate it how i disappear when she meets nice boys.

i think i should mention something about brandyn in the entry since he's usually in all my entries somewhere. so um.. there it is.

::sings::

"it's been awhile since i could say
that i wasn't addicted
it's been a while since i could say
i love myself as well
it's been awhile since i've gone and fucked things up
just like i always do
but all that shit seems to disappear
when i'm with you.."