Subj: yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah we all s'pose something
Date: 8/18/01 1:35:59 AM Eastern Daylight Time
From: [email protected] (joeinto - LJ Comment)
To: [email protected]

Self destructive hell yeah, mindless you bet, self absorbed you gotcha...its your fucking body though...How uh well to be exact proud of your cuts are you? Do you think that they are going to help you in life? Do you think that any of those scars mean anything? Fuck scars dont mean shit. Can hack and slash at whatever you want. Dont worry about what anyone thinks, especially me. I happen to think that its a waste of skin, it damages what is there. Its nothing but a bunch of skin cells all piled up on each other, great meaning in that. Ohhh the pain involved, fuck that its just a little cut. Drip drip a little blood. Its a sissy escapist form of dealing with problems to me, but that is just my opinion...(see in order to understand other peoples opinion you have to have respect for them and in order to have respect for them you have to have respect for yourself. This includes having respect for your body, although I leave that one out when smoking and taking other drugs. See the whole drug thing at times is a shitty escapist cop out for dealing with problems, but one that goes away after you are done.) Gee I guess I offended you, so the fuck what! Its not like you give a fuck one way or the other. Fuck it its not worth discussing with you, I wouldnt bother wasting my words or my time giving it any thought. Poof! I'm gone...Oh yeah like you'd fuckin notice anyways. Fuck that! ::spits on ground:: I dont give a fuck about what you think, you can object to the things I say for whatever reasons. Do me a favor though dont clutter my page with this shit. I dont fucking talk to you anymore please do me the same favor and not talk to me.

Subj: my limited capacity to understand
Date: 8/18/01 4:02:09 AM Eastern Daylight Time
From: [email protected] (joeinto - LJ Comment)
To: [email protected]

I get you just wouldnt understand so fucking much. What the fuck ever. Did you ever think that the whole fucking world understands and that maybe you just cant see things as they are. Fuck no why would you do that. I dont fucking call you anymore b/c I dont have any respect what so ever for you or your lifestyle. You are such a fucking waste of human life. You have the whole fucking world at your feet and you throw it away for nothing. On and on about how you are so passive, fuck that you are just another victim of everyday normal teenage angst. Listening to Cd's giving the lyrics such deep meaning. Man I am so fed up with people like you. I dont give a fuck if I talk to you ever again. I have had no intentions of calling you or writing you, but now you pissed me off. So here this is what I have to say. I dont ever want to hear from you again. I dont have any respect for you. You deserve every shitty thing that has ever happened to you, you asked for it. For all I care you can fall off the face of the fucking earth. "Ashley never calls" Fuck if I was her I wouldnt call you either. Fuck when I said I love you, I was wrong. Fuck being there for you, you dont fuckin deserve it. Fuck you. I dont give a flying fuck about anything related to you. You corrupt anything innocent in your life by tainting it with your failure to grasp reality. You bitched all during school about how you would like for brandyn to find someone else, you cant handle it. You are a weak piece of shit. Maybe the next time you cut yourself you will do the world a favor and cut the vein that does you in. Here you wanna hear me be an asshole. I have no regard for life, or atleast not yours. Self absorbed hell yeah self absorbed. Your head is so far up Brandyns ass that you cant even see the person you used to be. I was wrong there is no person underneath it all. There isnt anything worth knowing or caring about. So fuck you. Why am I being so mean you may ask, because I stopped caring about you. There isnt anything to care about. When I see you all I see is Brandyn and all his fucked up problems. I wasted so much fucking time. It wasnt worth it. Kissing you wasnt worth it, it was the biggest mistake and biggest waste of my life. You make me sick. None of you people are worth my time. So do me a really really big favor and fuck off. It wont be hard for you. Here this is my limited capacity to understand, I dont give a fuck to understand you or your worthless self serving life. I would rather not know you. No big loss.

Subj: Dont Fucking Write To Me!
Date: 8/18/01 6:28:32 AM Eastern Daylight Time
From: PranaJoe99
To: PSyCHo bUNnY 04

I dont fucking talk to you. So why the fuck to you bother to read my LJ posts? I havent called for a reason, I DONT WANT TO TALK TO YOU. I DONT WANT TO HEAR FROM YOU. I DONT WANT SHIT TO DO WITH YOU. period! Nothing. You wont find this all that hard to deal with you stupid fucking cunt. I dont want anything at all to do with you. I dont want you to read the things I write. I dont want you to reply to them if you do. I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU IN ANY REGARDS. I WAS A FUCKING MORON TO WASTE MY TIME WITH YOU. I am pissed with you. Wait!, no I dont even give a fuck enough to be pissed. If I were a magician I would make you magically disappear. POOF! Gone. Lets play a little game, you pretend I fell off the face of the earth and I will pretend that you died. Sounds fun enough for me, how about you? Ah yeah I forgot you cant make a fucking decision of your own. Nevermind, that whole passive thing. What the fuck ever. Here let me explain why I am being so damn mean. I dont care! It doesnt matter. I enjoy it. Its not as if you are hurt by any of these words. Hey next time you are cutting yourself, cut a little deeper and try more towards the middle of the underarm.

http://bmezine.com/scar/990615/scarcut.html

i've decided that no matter how offensive he intended this to be, i'm not going to let it bother me too much. i figure, fine.. i've never done shit to him, and nothing to deserve anything like that. so whatever. he can think what he wants, and i'm not about to condescend to his level to argue it. in joe's infamous words "fuck it." ::spits on the ground:: i'm more or less disgusted with his attitude, and if he doesn't appreciate me, fine.. he's the one missing out. ::flicks him off:: so fuck you, joe. why don't you do us all a favor and POOF! magically disappear.

2:21 a.m.