a lot of these poems are over 6 years old ^_^ so they may sound a bit awkward in some parts...
haven't written poetry for over 5 years...
(untitled)
...she remembers the tears...
...that stem from the lies...
...she remembers her fears...
...the pain from her cries...
...her heart beats ever softer...
...a whisper to the touch...
...for fear it were to beat too hard...
...the pain would be too much...
...to reveal herself her nakedness...
...her weaknesses her past...
...she hides away runs away...
...how far can running last...
...she took one step too close...
...she takes three steps far back....
...she walks away...runs away...
...running from her past...(2/3/03)
Salty Tears
you feel my salty tears
fall into the palm of your hand
if i could make believe
you could take what i've lost
this innocence to heal a wounded crimson
crushed by the depths of reality
calloused by words unfeeling
losing sight through distorted vision
liquid wall
losing sight of my own reflection
i disappear
could you foresee my tears before they fall
could you erase the memories that flow
could you stop the floodwaters from breaking a dam
feel my tears slip from your hands
Broken Part of Me
i thought i used to know who i was
thought i knew what i believed in
what i would always hold true to
what i would always cherish
thought i could protect myself and the world i always ran to
the world i had always created to escape reality
but i never expected that this world
my world, after being broken in over and over again
would be broken beyond what i could handle
to see my world, this refuge in my mind, be torn from my hands
by the one closest to me
to realize that which i held so true is so fake
in one night
hurts
and i will never ever be the same
it was a succession of events
a nervous confrontation
an answer i didn't want true
a pain that tears out your insides
and a slew of obscenities from the person i love most
who i trusted most
who i always looked up to
and who i don't know
anymore
i have learned that if you love someone
you don't wait to tell them what they already know you know
and what they are already waiting for you to say
b/c if you never say it until it's too late
you learn the hard way, it breaks one part of you
i have learned that once those things that used to shock you
no longer hurt or surprise you anymore
that your innocence is now lost
and you've become calloused to the world
you percieve things differently, it breaks two parts of you
i have learned that runing away is my best refuge for now
until i learn how to deal with everything i've left behind
running is the only way to save this last part of me
unbroken
i thought i used to know who i was
thought i knew what i believed in
everything changes
thought i could protect myself and the world i always ran to
but i can't
so i'll keep running for tonight...
when i wrote this, i thought i could make myself so strong that no one could reach me anymore...because if you can reach me, i give you the power to hurt me...
This Ice
you can't break this ice
i can't hurt anymore
you can try to melt the tears away
but i won't cry no more
may feel like you've reached me
or can define me by some conclusion
such a fool to believe what you see
b/c it's all an illusion
though you try to break this ice
there's no more you can take
i won't hear you anymore
cause now i know it's all fake
my mind is too numb
my body too weak
with eyes that no longer see you
and a heart that no longer seeks
Missing Memories
vs 1
why do i feel as if
there was once a past shared between us
we used to...
we had...
we shared...
we once...
swept away before our eyes
chorus
i look into your eyes
and there's something missing completely
i try to search to see what's empty inside
and i realize
it's all the missing memories
vs 2
we needed...
we felt...
we cared...
we loved...
taken away by no surprise
cause we gave them up
a long time ago
in a far away reality
and we both realize we both
had to let go....
bridge
i'm saying goodbye to you
sweet memory
i can't remember all that we once were
but everytime i see you
i remember something vaguely inside
maybe it was all another dream
whispering in my ear so sweetly
or just another....
missing memory*^~
Imaginin You Dream
imaginin you dreamin this same starlit night
caressed in your arms, the moon shinin so bright
forever from the day we meet and never let go
sharing luv that fills the heart mind and soul
someitmes i can't imagine jus where u may be
under a starlite sky or watchin a sunset beach
i jus can't see
why we so far apart
or too close to pass by
sometimes its jus too hard
to imagine u finding me
i imagine the days your eyes meet with mine
goin deeper than thoughts
and yours to find
to explore and listen,
to share and hold
memories to reminisce
and futures to unfold
holding your hand i've dreamt of afar
we'd walk hand in hand
right towards the stars
passing hte milky way
the constellations and planets
its too good to be true
i wake up
that's how things are
sometimes i think i was never meant to be held
the irony i feel in the cards i was dealt
cause i want to luv freely and give so much
to feel the warmth of someone and feel his touch
tho i know most chances i'll end up breaking my heart
cause i could never break yours
i'd jus fall apart
i'd give up everyone
save the pieces of myself
to let you know i've been waiting
straight from the start
will u be there and never leave?
cause i've been hurt too much for my feelings to concieve
anymore anger and confusion
the times when i cry
hiding myself in a closet
from believing all these lies
it scares me cause i need
someone to take me from this land
to put my trust in
release my burdens
i need you to understand
to hear you say you luv me
so i can believe
that you truly mean it
believe it, just take my hand
cause this always happens
way too fast
i fall for sum1 so easily
and it's not going to last
i look outside to see if you're there
finding myself lost
and fulfilling my fears
cause maybe this is true God's way for me
not meant to find you
that's how it seems
but there's a chance you are out there
still looking for me
i'll still be here thinking of you
imaginin you dream...
Fall Like Rain
these tears fall like rain
drenching my eyes
emptying my soul
these tears flow in rivers
with no dam to stop them
and nothing to grasp hold
when you lose yourself in the storm
and drown yourself in the sea
find there are no more tears to form
cause these tears still fall like rain
...endlessly...