Distraction

You hurt me deep, you stupid man;
For what you did, that broke my heart.
You took it free and left a space;
Now full of pain, but nothing else.
It cut so deep, that truth withheld;
When I didn't know your heart she held.
Depressed, you said, is what you were;
But it's your fault, I take no blame.
You love her still, so what was I?
Distraction sure, but that didn't work.
I feel so proud, or something worse.
You made me think you gave her up.
I wonder what it could be like,
To have just you all to myself.
~2002~