In my dreams I'm trying to find,
My life, my heart, my body and soul,
They're locked away in the deepest of holes,
They won't ever escape, they won't ever be found,
They're not even helping by making a sound.
It's amazing what lonliness can do,
All you want is to meet someone new,
But the more you try, the more you fail,
At this point I'd rather be locked up in jail,
Actually I would rather be dead,
Instead of being told my heart is of lead.
I'm tired of this feeling that's locked up inside,
It won't come out; it's trying to hide,
I try to let my feelings flow,
But I keep hearing people say no,
I'm sick of the way people look and stare,
They think I'm a freak; and it's just not fair.
I hate the fact I won't be missed when I'm gone,
I think everyone will be glad that it's done,
It's not gonna hurt, I wont feel it at all,
The power to kill, it shouldn't be so small.
Theres nothing I want more than a friend to say wait,
'Please don't kill yourself, you are a good mate'
But that won't ever happen in my life or yours,
It feels like I'm slamming my head against a thousand doors,
But all I'm doing, is standing here,
With only one big fear,
Will I ever have someone to hug or to touch,
Is that really asking for too much?
I am here in body not mind,
In my dreams I'm trying to find,
My life, my heart, my body and soul,
They're locked away in the deepest of holes,
They won't ever escape, they won't ever be found,
They're not even helping by making a sound.