My thick heart had begun a metamorphosis
Its hardened, guilty center began to bleed
as worries traveled through my veins
And my mind became scarred with new fear
The knowledge I had was too much
But yet I knew it would heal me
Sadness was my shadow
Trailing me with an eternal weight
Hopeless ringing in my ears
Deafening, maddening toll of hurt
Cutting wires wrapped tight around my soul
My feet took on a different shape
Becoming heavy gray tree trunks
My untold anguish, brought on by
God knows what, is it sin?
Every step took so much effort
I strained with my indecision
Depression was the blackness I slept in
But I wanted a deeper sleep yet
A boulder now rested on my chest, closed my throat
Thoughts filled my head
But I could not speak!
Darkness, said to be my enemy
Posing now as my only friend
Begging me to come along
To feel a better pain
A purer despair
I sank into the melting, concrete floor
And tasted the dryness, the dust
Ages, years of waste, no longer innocent
The wind picked up, bringing charcoal clouds
Torrents of self pity and doubt
I smelled the fire, saw white yellow sparks
Scared, and so alone
Lightening bright and hot, a burning inside me
My heart unthawed as my body boiled
And heat rose to my raw skin
As cold rain fell my flesh crackled
The air felt lighter as I crawled
Climbed out of the ground
I was the plant, growing fresh and green
Out of the hole, renewed by hope
Breezes of happy calm
Memories and laughter feed me
Kill the silence because they are real, true
Beautiful clear blue eyes
Smile down on me, care about my struggles
His spirit is left behind in his every embrace
Love is a great redemption
Assuring light even in darkest night
Allows you a chance at faith
Takes your willing heart prisoner
And cares for you all your life.