Pushing it all down
keeping it under
empty and happy-painted sad
five days through
here it comes!
joyful release
my heart can be free
for a horse race moment
oh God, what now?
there is no sun, you say
for me, for us
only seven more struggles?
yes i'll live, i can act
Accept it
smile pretend, forced
act like before this
but swim in newborn torment
fresh acknowledgement of my aching heart
uncovered and tearing once again
and swallow SHARP pushing it all down
Smile to yourself, to everyone
to keep from remembering
seven more Hells to pay and
how to keep it under