your name went through my head the
other day...
i had a clear image of our second date...
a time were all windows were blinded with pink curtains,
were all the bad thoughts just went away,
i remember when you used to be my beloved pickle jar,
as well as i remember when my best friends named you that,
ha, a funny nick name in fact,
but you were so sweet and so accessible,
you could have been carried anywhere!
you seemed to be perfect, and i believed it.
yet then our world got so dark so quickly, don't you think?
my love unstable,
my head confused,
me...just rotting away.
and then for my personal torment you seemed to be so blind,
maybe too cached up in your own game.
our clouds then got blacker and blacker,
and as the acid rain fell,
everything disintegrated into the endless midnight fog.
it was all a lie, yet that illusion, that vision i saw..
it gave me comfort that maybe it wasn't all so dark once,
that you were real once,
yet its all gone now, it has been for a long time.
ever since the sun set in infernal torment,
ever since our world ended,
and yet everyday i kept hearing your name.
everyday i discovered another told lie,
another remark that i knew was not true.
although i survived all that, i've always been strong;
and after many days, and weeks, and months,
i found closure.
i was still in that dark place i have always been in,
but as time went by, i felt better,
hearing less and less of you in my head.
then not long ago the thought of you slipped into my mind once again,
yet somehow it wasn't one of those bad thoughts filled of resentment and hate,
it was one of laughter and flirtatiousness,
it was a good time,
one were i felt invincible,
when the smile never rubbed off my face.
yet i forgive you now for all that you have done,
you merely deserve that for giving me a good time on our second date.