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Deception runs through my veins,

It pumps through my blood wildly.

It covers everything in my surroundings,

Eternally it is attached to every bit of me.

It’s in every single muscle of my body,

It comes from every action I make,

It comes from everyone around me

It becomes my heartbreaking tragedy.

It simply surmounts me!

It holds the entirety of my mortal being.

What am I to do?

Nothing, just bare the pain.

Apparently it haunts me down. 

Always seeking for me,

Always sullying the blissful moments,

There’s no escaping this.

Feeling helpless and defenseless,

This is something I have no control over.

This is something beyond me.

It’s a superior energy than that of my own.

Sometimes it seems intimidating,

It seems as if this greater force was…

Trying to punish me in any way,

To torture me until I’m driven out of my sanity.

Maybe I care too much,

Maybe I just expect the best.

But it’s in my human nature after all,

I can not avoid the very things that define my character!

Nor do I wish to do so!

It’s the last serving of optimism I behold!

It’s the only thing I still believe in,

It’s what my morality relies on.

So what am I to do now?

“God works in mysterious ways.”

Well, FUCK GOD!

I’m simply tired of my sorrowful days.