Insane Abstract

spinning thoughts......spinning.......spinning,
all over,
their spinning,
their making me wonder who i am,
their destroying me,
thoughts, thoughts, insane thoughts,
help me? love me? hate me?
........watch me?

all of a sudden,
dark....dark...its all dark,
little girl? where are you?
OHH MY! your gone.
i was afraid you'd get lost behind all the crowd,
nothing i can do anymore,
all i do is try and fail,
i always do the wrong thing,
so I’ll let you go,
bye my darling, i always loved you.

Then there’s you,
don't tease me like this little boy,
don't make me guess,
its all just a very fucked-up game.
don't let me rot,
at least not alone...
that’s all I’ve ever wanted.


help? what if i said pretty please?
who do i kid,
its all the same,
useless cries,
i finally understand i'm all alone,
crazy bit by bit,
don't known when or why,
just destroyed,
just decaying........slowly.


going insane i see the clown,
that shadow that always lurks around me.
the clown, the clown.....
i hear the clown,
its all so clear now.
he stole the little girl away from me,
he messed with my head,
he left me all alone,
he did this to me,
all him.


i ask you now:
burn with me my love?
come clown,
burn....i await for you in the deep dark,
or let me guess would you rather watch me?
or ironically kill me again?


insane thoughts,
.......loosing identity,
but who cares anyway?
you don't even notice, nobody does.
all alone,
while the clown rapes me once and again.