For just a few seconds,
I could watch his glare,
I could watch his hurtful eyes,
I could see his disappointed soul.
This day, well this day...
stood for all that is just not fair.
it was like if I was being judged once again,
without any compassion at all.
Like if I did something wrong,
like if I had hurt him in some evil way.
That’s all it seemed,
that’s all I could think about,
that’s what clearly had an impact on me.
Did I truly hurt him?
Or did he hurt himself?
Didn’t he hurt me?
I’m so confused;
I don't even know what’s right anymore.
Was I the evil one?
If I was, then....what did i do?
These questions go on a merry-go-round in my head,
that’s all they do,
just go in circles, just tormenting me.
I have realized now:
that understanding is far fetched
as well as knowing why, is extremely hard to guess.
All I know is that once he was different,
once he said hi,
once he was nice.
Now I somehow hurt him,
I somehow scared him away.
I somehow I drove him out of my life,
and i am punished to see him every single day,
just watching him stare, with his hurtful eyes.
Afraid to say a single word,
and not even understanding why.
The typical me.