Crimson Tears
Like many my age I’ve often chosen to dedicate my entire Sunday to the completion of absolutely nothing. This Sunday was different for me though and made me think of a lot of things I had not before. As I lay there on the large emerald couch I was compelled by the things I watched on the small television screen. My index finger was just pressing the remote in its normal flicking motion as my eyes captured some crude images shown to educate those who are not aware of the suffering in this world. There on the screen was something no one I know can see and not be moved by. I saw with my own eyes images of children affected by chemical warfare in the past two decades. I watched as corpses were dug from the ground and as entire cities became unburied commentaries. I herd people tell their story of how they were treated like animals and tortured like much less. I sat there motionless as the coffins got smaller and the quantities of innocents killed grew. It seems that present day tyrants have chosen to make the world cry crimson tears. The present day events in this world are truly an act of brute beasts, and I include myself and all of human kind in this for not being able to make things right.
This made me realize a lot of things. Yet I want to clear up that I refuse to write about things I do not know. In fact I’m afraid I do not even have the ability to do so. This is why I write about what I see and what I’m acquainted with. What realities may I have the knowledge of? I know my emotions and my dreams, and I think that’s more than enough. Yet my emotions and dreams are entwined with the world today. I often ask myself what the future will hold for me and the people around me. As I look into my nieces eyes I can’t tell him with certainty that everything will be ok. This is the things that haunt me late at night. I hate knowing that the world suffers in a daily basis and that a balance is not established. Although it is rather difficult to attain everything must have a balance. The world today is missing so many things, some of them are hard to come by, but others we have lost along the way. Greed has destroyed the humanity in us. Greed is the killer that keeps asking for more and is never satisfied. Everyone wants to be successful and everyone wants to gain money, which now a day means power. Yet we will do anything to get what we want and we don’t care how many people we step on along the way. Determination is supposed to be a virtue yet we choose to abuse of this asset and create monsters of ourselves wanting more and more. This is why we never really appreciate what we have and who we are.
In the world today we continue to see how power is being abused and used for the most horrible reasons. We see how hate conquers over love and we act upon instinct and that usually means anger. The constant negativity of this world is killing us. We need to learn to embrace what we have and create better lives for ourselves and those around us. Although the future is uncertain we must learn to take into our hands our destiny and continue to live our lives to the full extent like if there were no tomorrow. I don’t want to turn on the television screen and see people dying on the news and wars being fought in the name of power. I want to see how people come together to help those in need and create a better world. I am no fool, an Utopia is practically impossible, yet I do have a dream that this world could concentrate on the better things in life and stop the sadistic pleasure of hurting others.
Our world is a place full of beauties and life is the greatest gift of all. Everyday I see people that don’t take advantage of life and its magnificence. Some people deny themselves of the best parts of life and choose apathy as their way of existence. Emotions are a wonderful thing, yet nothing last forever. And allowing ourselves to feel makes us vulnerable to pain and suffering. Yet what is a life when you don’t feel? It’s no life at all. That’s why I choose to take the risks of life and I choose to live for today. My world like any other has crumbled down many times, yet I choose to not surrender. I’ve been able to pick myself up and start again. All my pains and sufferings have made me who I am and will continue to mold my being.
Many people live lives full of regrets. A life of regrets is no life at all, it’s the constant torture of being attacked by the what if’s, and it’s a life full of guilt and what could have been. We all make mistakes, and that is how we learn and grow. Yet it’s pretty dumb of ourselves if we keep making the same mistakes and therefore we have to continue with life and learn how to make the right decisions. Everyone has the ability to create and change their own destiny, it is within our spirits and ambitions that we choose the roads to take our destinations. Maybe in the future the world will find peace within itself to stop crying.
[To be continued…]
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