Control
so its come down to this and im still stuck here asking why nothing has changed. and why after two whole years of nothing do i still feel the same about you. but i have all the regrets of the world. so tell me what does this mean for me. and will i ever get past this part of my life. i remember staring across those fields and the sun was setting over trees. and i watched you spinning with flowers in your hair. and thats when i lost myself those days. so i guess i didnt have what it took. so why cant i be good enough for you, or anyone, or even myself. i cant stand to hear you say again. . ."this just isnt what i want. and i just dont feel this way. and i dont want you so could you please just let this go." but i remember laying in my bed everynight pretending i didnt know my name. and thats where id tell you everything. and thats where youd want to be with me. but now what is this. and where are we now. and where are we going to, i dont know. and could this be the change that i need just to make me believe again. because all i want is for me to believe again. but why couldnt you just be the one who saves me now.