jan-6-00 hello, right now i am in Tokyo with my brother and we are in an internet cafe all night (maybe) because we dont have enough money for a hotel because tokyo disneyland is more important! and damn you all for thinking i am weird about wanting to go to disneyland but i am a kid at heart and im not going to supress that. so i miss becky a lot and i wish she was here or i was there, or somehow we could hang out, so if becky, my love you are reading this; i miss you.
my life is pretty stagnant, im trying to make plans after japan, which are almost impossible. im trying to decide on my future, which is almost unimaginable. but hey, lets save more serious things for more serious times.,
sep-18-00 ok, so my life is now a fishing trawler and emotions have been dredged up (hey is that actually a word?) to the surface again. how do>>> i really feel? i dont know i had been trying so hard for the last month to forget.,, does supressing something actually make it go away? boys are so retarded.
sep-12-00 i just cant stop listening to hefner and pedro the lion. they are my day,
sep-9-00 my life is boring, so boring that sometiiimes i forget what emotional thoughts actally are, and i cling to them like they are precious pear;ls and they always turn out to be really dumb emotions and then i feel stupid after all. its all the same, its a stupid formula that hasnt quite been defined. let me define it for you; oh wait, i cant be bothered.
really my life isnt so bad - i just like complaining and thinking its bad and not appreciating it. i like ranting about things. one day i will eventually working out i am lucky and my life is fully of opportunity. sometimes i realise this.
my train is at 12.42pm and its 12.16 nnow which means i should move soon.
shit, 12.19. its only a 5 minute walk i suppose. I have the urge to buy something right now off the internet but everything is so goddamn expensive for those foolish enough to live in japan. spin for example. i really want to subscribe to spin, but THEY re so dumb they dont realise that OTHER countries rather than america might have MORE than 5 numbers in their post code. thanks so much spin, you magazine i would have subsribed to if you had had enough spaces... grr ghrrrr. if you have any ideas what i should buy, email me.
ok, si im off to work, which is another story. Im practically an actor, or is it actress?
sorry, im usung a macintosh, the words are fucked up.....?///////////meow