Rain outside, cold inside
Tears ran at full and heavy stride
Love, I have to give, no one to take
I show happy, all is fake
Neither persons here,
All alone I'll be I fear.
Shaking I hold up to my lips,
A blade to replace no finger tips
All night is real,. All day I fake
Like a circus monkey I make
A brave face,
Outside my case
A shell, a protector, a place to hide
Within no one I confide
No death for me, just my heart
My feels, each day, shall become more tart
Neither friends, nor kin
Have known my sin
They are part,
Of my heavy heart
They don't know,
I wish to go
I want to say,
But all long day,
"Next time I'll try,
Before I die,
For they will know,
Even if it's just before I go."
I have planned what to say,
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This was written by me. The last line will be added when I can. You can try and guess it, some people I know will get it, but it would be hard for someone I don't know. This was when I was really depressed, so yeah.