I was told not to hold back
Because if I held anything back
I won’t be able to let you go
Kristen told me this

When I drove past her house
For the forth time
She listened to everything I told her
Before that drive

She knew nothing about you
Beyond that I called you nightly
And that you were becoming close to me
She didn’t know how much it scared me

That you were getting so close
She didn’t know that at night
As we talked
I held my pillow tight

Wishing it was you
Waiting for it to hold me back
But my pillow would catch my thoughts
As they dripped out my ears

The thoughts i didn’t want to tell you
But somehow I still did
The pillow version of you held them
And held me back

And pillow you
Was always there
Never somewhere doing something stupid
But in the corner of my bed

Where a pillow best friend belonged
Not 127 plus miles away
But you belong that far away
So tonight I’m turning off my phone

Hoping you don’t call me
I have nothing new to tell you
No secrets my pillow hasn’t heard
A new life begins for both of us come sunrise

“You’re gone, I’m miles away
Turning out your lights
Ten different ways I couldn’t miss light
Can’t do this anymore”