I seem to have always asked you questions
Told you things as they happened
Stole so-and-so’s phone to send you a message
Trusted you

I felt I was blind and someone tied a blindfold over my eyes
Not to mentioned being lead
By the blindest see and eye dog with a stuffy nose
I fell back into you

Hoping to god that you wouldn’t let me fall
You watched me fall
But right before I hit the ground
You threw some pillows under me

To ease my fall
But then your arms were under my back
Guiding me into a softer landing
You didn’t let me fall

Extremely hard
Just enough so I would learn
Not to trust you completely blindly
And somehow it took me a while

But I’m learning this now
And I keep asking questions of you
Even now in your absents
I ask you questions

I know you’ll never have all my answers
But so far you’ve spun your cell phone
And told me which way to go
So I went

At one point I closed myself to your words
I didn’t want to hear you loved me
I didn’t want to hear you say that you loved me
I didn’t want to say it back

So I told you a lie
I told you that I couldn’t handle you
I couldn’t handle being loved
That’s why I told you that

Maybe if you one day came back to me
I should have been with you all along
And it wasn’t until you were in street cloths
That I realized you were just like me

Tired, and wanting more
But when I saw you that way
You had someone to get more from
And I wanted more from you, so

“I've been searching for
Truth that lies behind the door you've found
Do you keep your name
Is it all the same in your new world”