... I FOUND MY ANGEL SANCTUARY CD! THE ONE THAT'S BEEN MISSING FOR AT LEAST THREE MONTHS NOW! WOOT! I finally have access to all 20 volumes again! I found it when I was cleaning all the crap off my dresser. I swear, I must have found at least 30 hairties, 20 pencils, and at least 2 bucks in pennies, nickels, and dimes on it. o.o Oh yeah, and at least 3 notes from my mom to the teacher, excusing my lateness or absence due to braces. o.o Wow I had a lot of crap on it...
Anyways, I have officially decided Aunty Kimberly is my favouritest aunt EVER! Not only does she compliment my piccies, she doesn't try and turn every conversation caused by discovery of one of my talents into a discussion about my future. There's other good stuff about her too, but I'm trying to make this quick, so I can work on my ficcie. It's already past midnight, so I guess it's actually Wednesday now...
Anyways, I FINISHED THE SAIYUKI RELOAD ANIME! And I think they must have been paying the animators extra for the Kami-sama arc, as the art was probably the closest to the manga yet. Sanzo didn't look blockified in the Black Thingie. Ans his hair looked pretty good too. ^_^
Yeah, so anyways, I'm going to work on the fic now, if I'm lucky I'll finish it tonite so I can keep to my updating schedule... If it isn't up by tomorrow, 99% probability it will go up the next day. The 1% is if I fall down the stairs and break a leg or something. Which would be annoying. I do NOT want my first broken bone ever to be the day I try and update something. mleh. Anyways, I'm stopping writing now. mleh.
Monday August 22nd 2005
...Fuck. Not only is this blog AGAIN brought to you by pencil, but I'm way behind on it too. My last post was on the 13th. mleh. Ok, the last 8,9 days in a nutshell. Sleeping. Eating. Reading fanfiction. Writing fanfiction. Playing Harvest Moon. Rewatching Saiyuki Reload. Keeping up on Mar, Naruto, TRC, Xxxholic, and FMA. I think I read the last few chapters that are out of Wild Adapter, but I can't remember if it was in the last 8 days, or the last 2 months. Drew 5 more piccies, all of them Saiyuki.
And all of this has been interspersed with camping every weekend, and periodic intervals in which I was dragged off to visit relatives. Sometimes I was even willing. Most of the time it's just an exercise to see how well I can blend into the background so no one talks to me, while trying not to go mad from boredom. I can't always draw, or write, because if they're the people I see maybe twice a year, they'll be curious and ask more wuestions than I want to deal with. 'Specially if they see me writing. I already got one discussion about my future at one of these get togethers, and I don't want that number to get any higher. At least it was safe enough to draw at my Gramma M's house for that get together. That's where I drew the 5 Saiyuki piccies. That's how frikken bored I was, drawing 5 piccies in a row. I had to deal with my bratty little cousin (female, by the way) leaping on me, screaming 'CALCIUM!' and then try and bite me at the same time though. mleh. Anyways 3 piccies were of the various states of Goku; present, past in the cave, and Seiten Taisei. There was one of Gojyo, which is half-way-decent for being drawn from memory, but which is NOT one of my better pics. And one of Sanzo. The only reason THAT one came out okay is 'cause I put his crown thingy on his head to hide his hair. mleh.
Today I actually cleaned up my bookshelf. O.O I can actually find things now. I am going to try and actually clean up my dresser top tomorrow, as even MORE company is coming. I am going to see how many compliments I can dredge out of people over my drawings, to feed my ego. ^_^
Saturday August 13th 2005
O.O I stayed up till 1:45 AM reading Hannibal Lecter, Silence of the Lambs. Originally, I had planned to try and work on my fic after finishing it, but it turns out the book was 200 pages longer than I thought it was. And at 1:45 AM, right after reading a horror fic... well... let's just say that it's not the easiest to think up funny things. I had to listen to my Saiyuki CD before the creeped out feeling went away. 'Still Time'. hehe. Now there's TWO lines that make me grin. One is the one from before, with... well... if you've watched the 2nd opening, you know what it is. It's THAT scene. Then there's the line where they're all in suits. happyKatie. You can't stay creeped out when every time you get to a line in the song, you start grinning foolishly. ^_^
ooh, I don't think I've mentioned on the blog the one time I showed my younger sister and her friend THAT scene. It was hilarious. 'Cause they completely didn't get it. They kept asking me to repeat it so they could try and figure out why I liked it so much. They kept saying "It's a STRING. What is the point?!" I'm thinking 'technically it's a rope', while grinning the whole time. And saying, "You'll understand when you reach puberty." It's fun to see ignorant siblings. 'Cause then I can watch it without my sis thinking I have a dirty mind.
Today I went to the beach, and ended up catching up on the sleep I lost. And miraculously didn't burn. O.O wow. Sleeping on the beach is fun. Then we went to my grandparents' 'cause some relatives were over. So no working on ficcie. Yet. I procrastinate too much. And then there's the time where I started to work on the ficcie, but got distracted by trying to do the author's notes first. You know those dialogue things you sometimes see in the author's notes between the author and the characters? Think that but 3 pages worth. Actually, if you count a single side as a page, 5 pages worth. o.o It was like the Energizer Bunny. It just kept going and going and going, to the point where I almost decided to make it into a seperate fic. A fic mocking my own fic, and the creative processes that go into it. I even got a title; "Behind the Scenes in Fanfiction Limbo." I didn't post it though for 2 reasons, one is that I'm not sure if it's the right format to be posted. 'cause they said something about msn script format not allowed, and I'm not sure it that's what it is. And two is that it makes me look crazy. It was fun to write though.
Friday August 12th 2005
... Basically the day of nothing happening. Read fanfiction. Played Harvest Moon. Read more fanfiction. Didn't realize one of my relatives came over until they had already left. mleh. But they brought some books over! And even though most of them are plain old romances, there was one definitely interesting book.
Hannibal Lecter, Silence of the Lambs.
I'm gonna read it tonight. With a light on. 'Cause I've read a little already, and I don't wan't to spend 3 hours trying to get to sleep after reading it. I WILL finish it tonight! MUAHAHAHA!
Thursday August 11th 2005
YAY! NOT brought to you by pencil! But now I can't think of what to talk about... hmm... I've really just been reading fanfiction. And every now and then I stumbled across a really funny one. 'The Sanzo Incident' by NellySama. One of the most randomly insane fics I've ever read. ^_^
The only other thing I can think of is I've been singing again. Thankfully, this time without the audience. I'd say 'thank god' but I'm not very religious, or 'thank kanzeon bosatsu-sama' but I don't think se feels like doing anything good for me on purpose at the moment. MUAHAHAHA! Evil fanfic author laugh. I sang until my throat actually started hurting. 'Still Time' is a great song. And will continue being great after it has been repeated so many times it loses all meaning, if just for the imagery it evokes of the 2nd opening of Saiyuki. Then I took the comp back. And read more fanfiction. Then worked on this blog.
... I'm too frikken distracted to type more. Everybody is watching Will and Grace while I'm typing. o.o And now I just remembered the dream. mleh. Weird dream. And now the act of remembering made me think of other things I keep remembering. Like 'Claret Night.' o.o Not suitable for children. Reminds me of this one quiz... it had this bit at the end that sums up what 'Claret Night' is in a nutshell. "Your doujinshi frightens small children and adults alike." And yet it's STILL good.
mleh. I'm gonna get off now. TV is too damn distracting.
Wednesday August 10th 2005
...Fucking hell. AGAIN this blog is brought to you by pencil. Stupid poor time management skills...I spent the entire day posting fanfiction, and reading fanfiction. Humour. I figured out how to do general searches properly. o.o some people have strange minds. And it's probably going to infulence chapter 4. maybe. Hopefully chocolate chips will counteract evil influence. Because I'm sure as hell NOT going to get away with making hot chocolate this late. And hopefully the sugar will keep awake long enough to start chapter 4. mleh. I have all these scenes in my head, but have only a minimal idea of how to connect them.
Incidentally, I now have a social insurance number. And will probably have to listen to TWICE the amount of 'get a job' flak from my brother. Asshole little brother. Last time I checked, little brothers were NOT supposed to hold their older sisters in contempt.
... Or maybe I'm too idealistic from all the books I've red with sappy sibling relationships. And I guess manga, but the only bro-sis sibling relationship I can think up on the spot is Setsuna and Sara...-.-; Oh wait! Kagome and her little bro! Except her little bro is more than 21 months younger. mleh.
Ok I promised myself I wouldn't go on about nothing for more than 20 minutes so I'll stop now and try and figure out how to make chapter 4 work...
Tuesday August 9th 2005
... This blog is AGAIN brought to you by pencil. After I had sworn I'd NEVER do that again. But hopefully since I'm writing it early, I'll have plenty of time to work on 'Why Mornings Are Evil.' I believe I mentioned on my ffnet profile that Kanzeon Bosatsu-sama sent me some writer's block. Hopefully the extra time I'm devoting to working on it tonight will make a difference.
What has spurred this sudden burst of ambition? There's lightning outside, and I've been kicked off the computer for fear of it's wellbeing. Plus my @$$hole brother switched the TV upstairs to sports. I hate TV sports. Especially when one of the best humour/dramas ever created is on. 'House.' Watch it people. It's on Global, Tuesdays at 9:00 PM.
... And no, no one is paying me to advertise 'House.' It's a waste of money. The only link to this place is through my ffnet profile. And I'm 99% sure only 4 people have visited that page. And I only know one person for sure even looks here. So it would be a waste of money on the advertisers part. mleh. O wait, there's now a link to this blog through my friend's blog. So I'll link to her blog now. Or try. http//:geocities.com/juniperealm. Fucking hell Pagebuilder hates me. I had to type the link out.
Anyways, last night after posting, I finished Count Cain! YAY! Or at least all sakuracrisis is scanlating... I have a sinking feeling there's more, but they're not scanlating it. For one thing, the thing about the creepy-stalker-doctor-guy who wants Cain's eyes hasn't been resolved. On the plus side, if it HAS to end, at least I got some actual DEFINITE more-than-blink-and-miss FLUFF between Cain and Riff! ^_^ happyKatie. fluff,fluff,fluff,fluff! (sings to the tune of meowmix for some odd reason) Then I went looking for 'Love Mode.' Got nowhere. Went to see how far down the 'New Chapters' list my story was, clicked on a link called 'When Chibis Attack!' Name says it all. ROFLMAOS hilarious. The 's' stands for 'silently.' As everyone else was sleeping.
Today, more Harvest Moon, more When Chibis Attack, and another fic I found that's halfway decent, LONG, but not quite worth a recommendation. The sequel might be though. I've only read the first chapter of the sequel, but it seems to be of a higher writing quality. They didn't seem to keep writng everybody's name over and over. (I mean, we GET it, it's SANZO doing the action now.) Notice how I automatically chose Sanzo as an example. --; Still decent though, and it's LONG. That's good. To me at least. Means it might last me a day...
Well I'm just goign to check and see if i'm getting the comp tonight, and if I'm not, there will be a WHOLE lot oftime devoted to chapter 3. huh. Maybe it will come out a decent length this time.
P.S. Well no compy. But there IS hot chocolate. SCORE! Now I will fight writer's block with sugar!! ^_^ Oh yeah and now I have a song stuck in my head called either 'Breathe' or 'Just breathe.' Heard it ONCE this afternoon, and now it's popping up at random moments. (it's seriously stuck now)
Monday August 8th 2005
...Well I didn't end up working on chapter 3 like I said I would this morning. That's what happens when you sleep late on a regular basis. And then take forever to get ready for the day. Because by then, it's your turn on the comp, and there's so much other stuff you want to do instead. Like check ffnet for fanfic updates. And see if people reviewed my fic. AND SOMEONE DID!! *jumps for joy* Actually not this morning when I originally checked. More like 10 minutes ago. Now I have TWO reviews! And 79 hits! Basically me doing the blog now, is so I don't stay up late writing with a pencil on it, so I can use the time for my fanfic instead.
And luckily for the fanfic, practically nothing has happened today. I've been lazy. And playing Harvest Moon More Friends of Mineral Town. The girls' version! YAY! I'm gonna get Cliff! And watch my sister get Gray! One of the most addicting gameboy games I have ever played. Basically you just farm. And somehow you find yourself getting so sucked into it, so that you're really excited when the plants sprout. Or when you can get a bigger pack. Or find more Heart Events. mleh. It's exciting till you get everything. 'Cause after that, the game still keeps going and going and going... And nobody ages. Including the kid you can have. Or any of the kids that were in the town originally. You know what the real kicker is? The previous guy who owned the farm, the one from the original version died. While everyone else is at the same age as before. Including the old granny lady who DIED in the last version, but is here now. I can't believe they kept the secret of The Fountain of Youth from him... JEEZ. Especially since they said they all liked him... mleh.
Oh here's a mini rant. Annoying brothers who can't take the fact that you want to write seriously, and have to make mocking-sarcastic comments about it all the time... mleh. YAY TWO REVIEWS!!
Sunday August 7th 2005
Huh. I don't know whether to start with the happy stuff that happened today, or the stuff that just plain pissed me off. mleh. I'll start with the happy stuff. As it happened first. Mostly.
OK, I'll just pretend that this happened 2 minutes ago. YAY! Katie got a major ego boost! She got major compliments on her piccies! From her Dad, and Gramma, and Grampa! And Mom! I've noticed that people who admit they have no talent give the best compliments. ^-^ 'Cause the people with talent will admit you have talent, and praise you for it, but make comments like 'now just imagine how good she would be if she had a different subject.' As in not anime. Or manga. Murg. Jeez Mom, I like drawing anime, and the only reason I drew that one picture you like so well is 'cause I spent nearly the WHOLE FRIKKEN DAY on it. Real life is a different story all together. My Gramma told them that drawing anime style is probably just a phase. I still haven't figure out if she was just humoring them. Especially since when I showed her the 8th volume of Saiyuki (tokyopop version)just so she could see the kind of thing I was drawing from, and she saw the picture of Hakkai on the back cover. She REALLY surprised me. I think the exact phrase she used was "Oh he's cute!" while grinning.
I was so frikken surprised my eyes actually bugged out slightly. You find allies in the strangest places...
I made some comment about how she's practically the only one I can find who thinks the same way (meaning in my family) and basically restated her last comment, "Oh but I like him, he's cute!" and she WINKED. Now some people might be weirded out by the fact that their grandmother was winking at them over Hakkai, but not me. It means I'm not crazy for thinking the Saiyuki Boys are hot. Or it means that Gramma on my Mom's side IS where I get my insanity from... Now I have half a mind to go through my collection of pics, and email her the less suggestive ones. There ARE limits you know.
Let's see, on to the neutral. As in mixture of happy and unhappy. My cousins' family had 2 japanese students with them. Me, the Saiyuki/Inuyasha/anime-in-general/manga fanatic that I am, really wanted to talk to them and find out all about Japan. The rest of me was screaming, 'for the love of God NO!'... I am EXTREMELY shy. mleh.
I also had a song stuck in my head the whole time my realatives were over. A japanese song. 'Still Time' actually. I had been listening to it before they came over. Now, due to a slight increase of self-confidence in my humming/singing ability, and the fact that I had a song stuck in my head, naturally every time I wasn't talking I was humming. The 3 cans of pop didn't hurt either. But my Gramma heard me humming, and then when she figured out the song was japanese, she wanted me to sing it. mleh. Fucking stage fright. Whoever invented it should be shot. Gramma is persistent. I had sung songs for her before, so it was easier for her to convince me. 'Specially since I like singing. Just not in public. More than 2 other people is public. mleh. I sung it. After my Gramma insisting that I ask the japanese students if they knew the song. I don't think they know much music. Finally I just said 'It's the 2nd opening theme song for Saiyuki.' They recognized THAT word. Or at least one of them did. They started talking to each other in japanese, and it sounded like one was explaining about the anime. As one of them had said 'Saiyuki?' in a questioning kind of voice. That was kind of interesting. Anyways, me singing. Thankfully I had the song playing though, so it should have masked any offkeyness. Or something. And I had lyrics. And I actually nailed the part that my toungue had been tripping over that afternoon.
Stressful stagefright is a strange thing. It ALWAYS makes my voice waver in the beginning, yet the extra adrenalin seems to go towards making sure I Don't Screw Up. Fucking hell. I HATE being so shy. 'Specially since I'm a social person. How's THAT for a contradiction. mleh. I like to talk. But when I'm NOT talking, half the time is 'cause I don't WANT to talk. The rest of the time is when I have nothing to add to the conversation, or have just flat run out of subjects. My parents wonder why I never talk to them. It's 'cause I have NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT!! If for some reason my parents ever find this page, here's something you should know by now. 'WE HAVE VERY LITTLE IN COMMON.'Personality-wise, lots in common. Physical appearance, lots in common. Everything else, not so much. 'Cept swimming. An some stuff. mleh. huh. I've triggered half the 'shy rant' and part of the 'parents rant.' I wonder what will trigger the rest...
Ok the stuff that really pissed me off tonight. Basically all computer related. And the whole staying up late issue. mleh. I'ce forgotten half my rant with all the other stuff. At least Mom actually made good points this time. She said she doesn't want the computer on past 11, but I'm welcome to stay up later in my room. And the computer is on for over 12 hours a day... So here I am taking full advantage of that. This rant was first written entirely in pencil. ^_^
Now for the stuff I wanted to write about before all that stuff happened. Namely 35 53. I read 'Claret Night.' And just barely clung to my last bit of innocence. O.O People uncomfortable with seeing certain parts of the male body should NOT read this. Everyone else go ahead. I liked it actually. ^_^ I just kind of... skimmed...certain parts...yeah... Anyone with younger siblings and parents in the house should wait till everybody is either gone or asleep. O.O I wasn't expecting it to be quite THAT graphic. I was expecting full blown yaoi. Just not...yeah... It's not the same as when I picture stuff in my head. It's all censored. Everything conveniently blocked from view by arms and legs. While giving a perfect shot of tushy. And pecs. And abs.
OK there WAS a point to this minor ramble, and that was to form an opinion on 53. And 'Claret Night' SIS make me feel like a long term relationship could be possible, IF they fell in love. Which they had in 'Claret Night' Even managed to keep everyone in character. They just neglected to mention exactly HOW Gojyo fell in love with Sanzo in the first place. Or vice versa. O.O That's the part that trips me up... Sure if they were in love it could work. But how the hell could they stay alive that long for it to happen? I'm 90% certain that Sanzo and Gojyo will have killed each other LONG before any romantic notions can foster. Or Hakkai and Gojyo would have already made their move, and safely have secured their first choice pastners before any 35 53 can happen. 39 58 all the way!
mleh. I was gonna start chapter 3 of my fic tonight, but writing the blog took longer than I thought it would. I'll try tomorrow morning, before the heat sets in and kills my ambition. God I hope it rains... Then I can write the WHOLE day!^_^
hmmm...let's see...if I'm not going to write fanfic tonight, let's at least see if there was anything else I was going to put... let's see... pictures, singing, comp/parent rant, Claret Night, 53,... I supposed I could rave about the art in Claret Night, and how it almost seems like it was drawn by the mangaka... but now when I think about 'art' and put it with 'Claret Night'... many dirty thoughts. Incidentally, my last piece of innocence is small, and no longer in mint condition. Quite battered actually. Dirty thoughts more frequent than before. The only reason it hasn't completely dissolved is the mental block i have against having REALLY dirty thoughts. Basically every time something starts getting TOO dirty/graphic/run-away-children-before-it-gets-you-too, my brain basically just stops it. Until the thought goes away completely. It's a little bit annoying actually, if I ever want to write 39 58 (which I do), or just sex scenes in general, I'm going to have to fight the block. mleh. Oh yeah, and the innocence is also partly reinforced by the fact that I'm still a little naive about some things. I think. It's too late at night to think of what they are. mleh.
Ok NOW I'm out of things to say. I'm sleeping now. Hopefully I've ranted enought that the rants stop circling through my brain, so I can turn it off and SLEEP!
Saturday August 6th 2005
I have spent the day being lazy. And setting up this blog. The last 2 entries had been either written down, or saved in my comp, so today is the actual official day the blog begins. WOOT! let's see how much of the stuff I REALLY wanted to write I can write down before being booted off the compy. It's already past 11, and for some reason my parents think that's too late to be on the comp. Especially since I'm usually the one on the comp the most. Actually, I'm just the one who shows how much she likes being on the comp the most. Even though my sis probably likes it just as much, but since she has a computer with internet access in her room, nobody notices. So she doesn't get flak for it. mleh. A rant for another day...
Anyways, today's blab is going to be about Saiyuki. And pairings. The non-canon pairings. And just how likely said pairings are. This was partially inspired by my dream, because though I have thought about it before, I never actually tried to figure out exactly how said pairings would be possible.
First up: Sanzoxhakkai. Hereafter referred to as 38 or 83. Probably the 2nd least likely pairing you could have. (1st least likely will come later)
... I just can't see this pair happening. Ever. Not even if you get them both drunk off their posterior. On a rainy night. Not even to console each other, to block out the sound of the rain, zip, nada, just not realistic. Jen calls them intellectual buddies. I agree with that, and add angsting-in-the-rain buddies to the mix. That's ALL they are. Hakkai might POSSIBLY have entertained thoughts, and so might have Sanzo, but Sanzo does his darndest to deny that he has any feelings at all. Or he would acknowledge he has them (to himself at least) but not act on them, because he would view them as a sign of weakness. And Hakkai's too polite. And probably too reluctant to jeopardize the fragile relationship they have. Sanzo's relationships with everybody are fragile. Except Goku. But that's a canon pairing and not to be discussed. Except for the fact that if Hakkai was to turn to somebody for... comfort we shall say...it's much more likely to be Gojyo. He's known him longer, Gojyo probably knows him best, there's history there, and they've got the whole past life thing where there may-or-may-not-have been any truth to the rumors floating around. I just CAN'T see him turning to Sanzo. Sanzo isn't exactly the comforting type. Unless he felt he wasn't good enough for Gojyo. The whole 'not deserving of love' thing. THEN I could see it happening. But not lasting. Because of the Sanzo factor. Maybe if Sanzo had a slightly different personality... but otherwise no.
Next up: SanzoxGojyo. Hereafter referred to as 35 or 53. In my opinion, it ties with 59 with 3rd least likely.
Ok I could see this happening. I don't know exactly why. I AM pretty sure that it wouldn't last very long, the guys are like oil and frikken water for crying out loud. They are described as 'bad friends' in the manga. Actually that could explain how 53 is more likely than 38. They don't have much of a relationship to jeopardize, so they really have nothing to lose. I think. mleh. I'm gong to read that doujinshi 'Claret Night' and then maybe I'll be able to form a better opinion on it. All I've got now is the whole 'BUT WHAT ABOUT GOKU?! AND HAKKAI!?' thing screaming through my head.
Next up: GojyoxGoku. Hereafter referred to as 59 or 95. Ties with 35 for 3rd least likely.
Ok, I USED to think that this pair was completely unlikely, combined with slightly...almost wrong. Because I had safely classified Gojyo and Goku's relationship as 'brotherly'. The only easily classifiable relationsip in the whole frikken quartet. And though I have read manga where incest abounded, and after the initial 'Ok. So they're siblings. Ok then. Good to know.' it felt like any other relationship. Which is the whole point I guess. They may have been siblings, but that sure as hell wasn't how they acted. So when 2 people who act like siblings start doing unsiblinglike things... it weirds me out. But now due to a fanfic, and my own odd dream, I have decided that it is possible. Ok for short term; if Goku walked in on Hakkai and Sanzo doing you-know-what (yeah this needs the 2nd least likely pairing to work) and gets depressed. Gojyo tries to comfort Goku, while feeling crappy himself about Hakkai. But NO he does NOT try and comfort with kissing and sex. I just can't see him starting it. Because I'm pretty sure he sees Goku as a brother. And wouldn't want to wreck what they have. Or just doesn't see him that way. I can see Goku starting it. Because I don't think he actually knows what his relationship with Gojyo is, and if he was depressed, I can totally see it happening. And then I can see Gojyo doing a rapid re-evaluation of the circumstances, and then comes all the other stuff. And then I can see (after the initial flurry of passion) at least ONE of them being mature enough about the situation to try and figure out exactly what the situation IS, and how long it would last. Sensible discussion. Or seems-sensible-but-not-quite-is discussion. And since I can't see the Saiyuki Boys settling for Second Best (or at least I can't see Gojyo and Goku settling for 2nd best), but like what's happening right now, I can see them mutually agreeing to continue the newfound relationship until they figured out a way to get their first choice partners. I can also see them scheming together to get said partners. o.O I'm not sure exactly how likely this whole thing IS but that's basically what I came to after maybe an hour of sleeplessness (I've forgotten how to turn my brain to 'sleep mode') so I didn't question it so I could SLEEP! For a longer range relationship, take everything from before, but instead, both Sanzo and Hakkai have taken off for reasons unknown. (Seperately, any dirty-minded 38 fans wandering in from ffnet) Most likely Sanzo in an attempt to get the monkey to not depend on him, so he can prove to himself that muichimotsu works, and Hakkai because he either is scared of what Gojyo has to offer, or feels like he can't offer anything in return. Not them dying, Goku would probably go Nuts and kill everyone if that happened, and this whole discussion would be moot. mleh. I'm not sure how logical this all is, but it's past midnight (huh I guess it's technically tomorrow already) and my brain can't differentiate between total bull and the stuff that actually makes sense.
Last up: GokuxHakkai. Hereafter referred to as 89 or 98. And this one takes the prize for the Least Likely Pairing. Congratulations 89!
... I'm not even sure if I need to explain my logic behind this. Just think about it. Really think about it. When I started thinking about 53, naturally I started wondering about the other 2. And what came to my head was basically every case I've heard on the news or otherwise about Teachers With Their Underage Or Just Barely Of Age Students. 'nuff said.
Ok I'm going to see how much of 'Claret Night' I can read tonight, and maybe I'll be able to form a better opinion on 53 in the morning. And then update my ffnet profile. And see if I can write more of Chapter 2 of my fic with a pencil, as I'm SERIOUSLY pushing my luck with the computer here. mleh.
Friday August 5th 2005
... I'M BACK!!!!!!!! *cries for joy* we powered through and got here at quarter after nine, Friday night. I'm HOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's real! I'm home! 13 hours of driving... wow. Not That Fun. But totally worth it. I get to sleep in my own bed.
I have said before to certain people that camping messes with my dreams, so that they become even odder than usual. Now since this particular dream will lead into something else I want to blab on about, here it is. Keep in mind it was written in the motor home, on paper, then later added here. Oh yeah, and that I'm a major fan 39 58.
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Ok oddly enough, it started out with Will and Grace. From the TV show. Actually it's not too odd. I went on a mental rant in my head, and somehow Will and Grace came up. Funny show actually.
Anyways, on with the dream. Actually NOT on with the dream. The Gravol hasn't kicked in yet. murg. Will finish when it HAS kicked in. Will listen to Saiyuki CD in the meantime. Wow. i played 14 songs before feeling like I could face the pencil while the motor home is moving. 'Still Time' twice. heh. 'Fukuzatsu ni karanda, kokoro no sukima kara nigedase!' That's without the benefit of the lyrics in front of me.
Anyways the dream. Ok Will and Grace are in a bar or club or SOMETHING like that. Grace took him there to try and console him over something. Somehow they got seperated, and Will ended up talking to this lady. Which is frikken odd, as Will is definitely NOT straight. Actually, I think my subconscious stole that scene from this one episode. Anyways, Grace walks by on the balcony above, calling for Will ( actually i think it was more of a weird ballroom than a club) and Will hides under the table, because he doesn't want her to know he's flirting with the girl. When he pops up from under the table, the girl asks who that was. Will replies that it's the friend he came with, and that he doesn't want to be found by her yet. (or something like that) And he's thinking that if Grace finds out that he's flirting with a girl again, she'll make a big fuss that he doesn't want to have to deal with.
Ok HERE'S where it starts getting frikken messed.
Ok here is a period of time that was blacked out, because my subconscious decided to just give me the info directly. During this time, the girl makes Will Drunk Off His Posterior, and drugs him up too. Grace is now looking for Will with much more urgency as she is now slightly worried. And now here comes the FIRST really weird thing. During this blacked out period, Will somehow becomes Goku, and Grace becomes Gojyo. And they all leave the ballroom.
... I told you it was messed. Their personalities don't even fit for one thing... But wait! The most screwed up part is yet to come!
Ok Goku somehow crossed this river. The river has this weird, underwater yet not underwater passageway that is made by magical peole of some sort (elves, kelpies, I can't remember even though it was said right out) that defies all logical comprehension. One of those things that you have to be asleep to fully comprehend.
Now we flash to Gojyo (while time freezes over with Goku so the watcher doesn't miss anything) He is looking for Goku (like Grace was looking for Will) at the river. Except the river is doing that dream thing where it is not very wide, yet somehow Gojyo can't see Goku on the other side. Or maybe it's just the magic tunnel. Gojyo somehow knows that Goku went through the magic tunnel. So he starts going through himself.
There will be a minor break as I fight off motion sickness again with more music. mleh. I'll finish it after lunch. Or after I sleep some more. I don't even know if we're going to get a real lunch today... O.O wow. I DID get a real lunch. Like 10 minutes after writing that. Anyways the food has temporarily fought off nausea and the Gravol-induced sleepiness, so I'll continue.
Ok, back to Goku. He turns way from the river and Voila! It's the girl from before. I think. Either the girl or the Head Honcho lady she sold him to. The lady tells him that he has just come through the magical-path-gateway-thing, and that he now has to collapse it to keep people from following him through. (it should now be noted that my consciousness has taken up temporary residence in Goku's. WOOT! Front row seats!) Next comes the part that makes me think the girl had drugged him, as he does it. No complaints, nothing. Just walks over, puts his hands in the water, and collapses the magic tunnel. (with me going AAAAHHHH!! But Gojyo's only half-way through!) But my subconscious doesn't want Gojyo to die apparently.
Next thing you know, Gojyo's somehow got his hands on the river bank, Goku's side. But apparently is having trouble getting his head OUT of the water, or pulling himself up. Goku, when he sees the hands, goes on autopilot and reaches over and pulls him out, while slightly wondering why. As he is pulling him out, he thinks to himself something along the lines of 'old, worn tendons, this person must use these hands a lot.' or something like that. (old worn and reference to the hands and tendons, that's all I can remember for sure. Also, little warning bells start going off here) It seems obvious that Goku doesn't remember Gojyo, (not these bells) 'cause of whatever shit the girl gave him
So out of the water comes Gojyo, and after the initial spluttering is over, you can see a HUGE relieved look on his face. The relieved look that comes with a grin. (ah fuck more motion sickness, will continue later. Back. Fortified by 2 hours sleep and a half hour of pop) For seeing Goku OK.
Now there is one thing about Will and Grace you should know. Every so often, Will does this hug-but-not-a-hug thing with Grace where he puts his hands around the small of her back, but he leans back and puts space between them so his arms are nearly straightened.
Gojyo then goes and does the EXACT SAME THING with Goku. And then starts talking about how relieved he is, and cracking jokes, and generally just being Gojyo. Except THIS hug-not-a-hug is NOT between 2 best friends like in Will and Grace. You can tell. It had the dream vibe going to inform any dense people EXACTLY why Gojyo was doing the hug-not-a-hug. (I TOLD you it was messed)
So anyways, I'm still in Goku's head and I get to hear his thoughts. They aren't complimentary. They start as soon as Gojyo starts talking. I THINK they go something like; 'What is it? It's talking, but it sounds like a bug. Why is a bug talking? It's talking, but no words are coming through.'
... The girl had Goku on some SERIOUSLY weird shit.
So anyways he's thinking this, and decides to stop the annoying bug-talk. So he puts his hands on Gojyo's arms and jerks down, effectively breaking Gojyo's grip on him. While doing this he says (I think) something like;'What are you? What are you talking about?'
Gojyo looks like he's been slapped. That's the exact phrase that ran through my mind from my front row seat in Goku's head. I have NO idea how Goku knew that would shut him up. I'm actually not sure if he said the stuff till after Gojyo looks like he's been slapped or not. Anyway at this point, a slight hesitation on my subconscious' part caused by 'where to go from here' combined with shock that I was having a FRIKKEN 59 DREAM woke me up. Didn't get to see the end. Or what happened to the lady for that matter.
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My only excuse for why it was 59, is that Sanzo and Hakkai appeared to either completely not exist, or they had both left a long time ago for reasons unknown.
... mleh. messed. carsick. need music now.
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Yeah so that's the whole thing. The whole reason I posted it basically is 'cause of the aforementioned blabbing. The blabbing will be done for tomorrow's post. If I don't get kicked off the compy.
Thursday August 4 2005
Wow. I actually got access to a computer before Saturday. Unfortunately, only one fic I've been following has updated. mleh. And for all those who care at all, I do NOT have chapter 2 up. Because it is not finished. YOU try writing in a moving motor home sitting in the seat that faces backwards.Without Gravol. Actually I'm surprised I got anything written down that time...Or better yet, try writing in the small portion of the day that is NOT boiling hot, when you only get maybe 15 minutes before it's Lights Out. Mini-penlights do not work so well for writing in sleeping bags. Especially when you have to keep your finger on the button if you want the light to stay on... mleh. Or maybe I'm just lazy. I DO want to try and post it by Sunday though. And looking at the stats for my story makes me wonder whether or not I should feel special. On the one hand, it got 26 hits (wait, 27 hits now. WOOT!), on the other hand, absolutely no one reviewed.(Maybe the 27th person will review...meh. I'll give it 12 minutes, basically until I have to get off, before I give up on the person reviewing. Maybe I'll get lucky and some nice person who knows how frustrating it is to have 0 reviews will review and I'll get to read it when I get back. Or maybe ffnet is just being mean and isn't showing me the reviews right away, because it supposedly takes so long for them to load.) Of course it's only been like 5 days. Hence the dilemna about whether or not I should feel special. I'll settle for happy that people actually bothered to click the link.
For all those who care, I didn't get to see the baby donkeys. They were replaced by emus. I got some feathers. mleh. At least I got to see the pretty horses, and a full-grown donkey. Oh yeah, and I got a necklace at Fort Steele that says 'Desire' in Chinese kanji. At least I think that's what the Chinese written language is called. Actually I have no idea, but it looks like Japanese kanji, so until I learn otherwise, it's Chinese kanji. I had to buy it. It's kanji. My favorite Japanese manga is based on a Chinese Legend. I had to. It was cheap too. Oh yeah and I got to see the Royal Tyrrel Museum! But the camera copped out half-way through. mleh. Now I have to look forward to 2 more Days of Driving. With probably a trip to ValueVillage in there somewhere too. I HATE shopping when we could be an hour closer to home. mleh. At least they always have books there. Cheap ones. Ones I don't have to put back when I see the price. Like every hardcover novel past 300 pages.
Well there you go. More information on What's Happening With Me then you EVER wanted to know. mleh. I say mleh a lot... pray that the motor home's tires don't blow out before I get back (they're frikken OLD tires) so I can post chapter 2 for those Maybe 27 People Who Might Possibly Care. hmm. Maybe I should start reviewing more stories... I'm only actively reviewing one. meh. When I get back. (lazy+hypocrite= lack-of-reviewing) Only 4 safe minutes left of computer time. After that, it's only a matter of time before I'm booted off. Wow. I'm pretty accurate. I've just been booted off. mleh.