I can tell that's not what you want me to do.
No more waiting to see your name,
I know that you don't feel the same.
No more staring at the picture I've got,
Something I've been doing a lot.
No more emailing you all the time,
I know you won't respond in kind.
No more sitting by the phone, waiting for your call,
I get my hopes up, only to have them fall.
No more needing you to feel complete,
Time to stand on my own two feet.
No more dreaming of your touch,
Even though I want it so damn much.
No more endless tears in the middle of the night,
It's time I give up, no more fights.
I know I love you with all my heart,
But in your life, I don't have a part.
I know I have to let you go,
Though in my heart you'll always be close.
For the rest of my life, I'll live with regret,
Because your face, I'll never forget.
Ker.
Another night when I cry myself dry?
It seems you've brought me nothing but tears,
And questions, regrets and the endless fears.
What we had was remarkable, a love that's right,
So tell me why I am awake every night?
Why I now, cry myself to sleep,
Why I hear only my sobs as I weep?
Why every day, my mind is on you,
Why I feel as strongly as I do?
When all you do is make me cry,
I can't stop these tears although I try.
Why do I love you as much as I do,
Why am I so sure my feelings are true?
When now you say you love me no more,
When your words hurt me to the very core.
Am I destined to cry for the rest of my time,
Or will you once again be mine?
Will the sun come back twice as bright,
Or is this all I have, these tears at midnight?
Ker.
Such wise words, how could I forget?
Why did I not remember them that day,
Before saying the words to end it this way?
"In Dreams I walk with You",
Do you know how much that is true?
In my dreams I see you every night,
In my minds eye, you hold me tight.
"Believe, sometimes you just have to",
I can't anymore, he doesn't want me to.
He wants to forget what we once had,
Before I ruined it, made it all bad.
"Talk to him and make him hear",
I can't without dissolving into tears.
There is so much to him I want to say,
But he doesn't want to hear it, not feeling this way.
"Trust in yourself and take things slow",
But how slow does he need to go?
I'm trying to take things as slow as I can,
But it seems to me, it's out of my hands.
Simple words that I have been told,
Designed to drive away the cold.
Simple words, designed to heal,
To make this all a little more real.
But these words, so easy, are much harder to do,
Harder to apply when important to you.
But when something means the world, your life,
You can't give up, you have to fight.
Ker.
How was I to know, yours wouldn't last?
A moment's abberation, a mistake that I made,
Has made you angry and your love fade.
If your love was strong, if your love was true,
If you had faith as you said you do.
You would understand and forgive my mistake,
You would forgive something so easy to make.
But now I sit in tears alone,
Feeling as though my heart turned to stone.
I sit here trying to cope with my pain,
While outside it continues to rain.
All I do is wait for night to fall,
Where in my dreams, I hear your voice call.
In those dreams, everything is right,
Your arms envelope me, holding me tight.
But when I wake to the cold reality of day,
Pain comes back and I quietly pray.
That one day you'll let me back into your heart,
That we will be together, never have to part.
But you changed your mind, you grew cold,
You never gave our love a chance to grow old.
Because of this, there is no you and me,
Life isn't a dream, it's cold reality.
Ker.
