You pushed me out of your heart and shut the door.
You said what we had is over and gone,
Just because of what I've done.
Then tell me please, if you could,
How do I evict you from my heart for good?
How do I pull my mind from memories?
How do I stop the apologies and the pleas?
How do I drag my mind from your face?
How do I fill this empty space?
How do I ever let someone in again?
How do I ever ease this pain?
How do I stop the tears I cry?
How do I stop wanting to die?
How do I stop thinking of you?
How do I live, what do I do?
How do I stop the endless longing for your touch?
How do I stop missing you so much?
How do I stop trying to win back your heart?
How do I get my life back, where do I start?
How do I get used to life alone?
How do I make myself believe you are gone?
Ker.
We don't need to speak.
Just being together is enough,
Finding the love that we both seek.
Looking up at your face,
Seeing you smile at me.
No hiding the love in those eyes,
The love between you and me.
Touching my lips gently with yours,
Your eyes closing tight.
Shutting mine and just feeling you,
Holding you with all my might.
Walking together along the beach,
Close together, hand in hand.
Love as endless as the beach,
As pure as every grain of sand.
The perfect place to live my life,
In your arms, right here.
A place I found only in my dreams,
My own, private Utopia.
Ker.
With all its wrappings and bows.
My mood becomes more reflective,
And the tears start to flow.
I think of all the things I want,
And the things I truly wish.
My wish is for something simple,
Just...one...kiss.
One kiss from the lips I dream of,
Those smiling, beautiful eyes.
That face that I so adore,
That keeps me awake at night.
But you are far away from me,
Too far to be at my side.
So instead I put on a brave smile,
These tears of mine I hide.
So, at Christmas, know I think of you,
You are my Christmas wish.
A wish to see you smile at me,
And give me just...one...kiss.
Ker.
Afraid I'll wake up and find you a dream.
Afraid of risking what we share,
Afraid of pain by leaving myself bare.
Afraid that you don't feel the same.
Afraid you don't smile at the sight of my name.
Afraid I'm no more than a friend to you,
Afraid I'm making too much of this too.
Afraid that you will run if I speak,
Afraid you don't want to hear what I think.
I'm not used to feeling so unsure,
But I'm unaware if you want more.
To learn I am wrong would kill my heart dead,
And so I leave the words unsaid.
I can't say what I know to be true,
Three not-so-easy words~I love you.
Ker.
Our dreams,
Our hopes,
Our wishes,
Our souls.
We were intertwined,
Part of each other.
Inside each others minds,
And inside each others hearts.
And now, although we are not together,
We will always have,
That bond,
That link,
For memories remain...
I will always be,
Part of you.
And you will always be,
Part of me...
Ker.
The only thing missing is your face.
I walk alone, amongst the trees,
So much better if you were with me.
The stream splashes quietly nearby,
As I try so hard, not to cry.
I round the bend and look along the trail,
Still thinking of you and the love that won't fail.
Birds in the trees can suddenly be heard,
A smile comes to my lips as I think of your words.
The sudden sight of the falls takes my breath away,
And I silently vow to bring you here one day.
I sit down quietly to get my breath back,
Wishing that you would appear on the track.
As the birds burst into song,
I realise suddenly you've been here all along.
Every new thing I see, every new thing I find,
You are with me, in my heart, soul and mind.
Ker.
