Hi there, I'm Nicholas and I am gonna tell you all about me. My Mommy found out she was pregnant with me it was in October just before the thanksgiving holiday. She went to see the doctor to comfirm it, then he sent her to an ultrasound to find out how far along she was. unfortunatly They couldnt see me just yet so she was asked to come back in a week. So she did, and thats when she found out she was 7 weeks. From there she proceeded to find a new doctor because the other doctor was a QUACK! My Uncle Mike was the first of the family to hear the good news, then my mommy played a joke on my Auntie Michelle, (she knows) Then on Thanksgiving weekend we were at my Nana and Papo's house for dinner and mommy was nervous to tell them at first, but when she thought the moment was right(laughs) she blurted it out. At first Nana didn't believe her, but then realize mommy was serious. Mommy then started to see Nana's doctor. She Started to see the new docotr in November. She gave her all the information she needed, includeing the dates we were given. But at this time we were unsure of when I was due.
Everything was going great, when she took her Materna Screening test, the doctors thought I might have an abnormality, so they told my mommy to go see a genetics doctor to find out. The test was for Down syndrome and Spina bifida, once she saw the Genetics Dr. She ruled out the chance of DS. But wanted to do further testing for Spina Bifida. They offered a amniosenticis but mommy and daddy said No. They were not going to risk losing me if things went wrong. So after two Level 2 ultrasounds, I was A ok. (and blood work) After that she found out she was definately due JUNE 15 2003, Fathers Day! They also found out that I WAS A BOY!(nurse took a guess) But she new I was a boy. Then Mommy found out her blood type was A- which means she has to have a needle before I am born and after I am born.(Rhogam) Then things started to change from here, I was doing ok mind u but, mommy did her Glucose test and had to go see a Diabetes Dr, cause they thought she might have Gestational Diabetes. Mommy started to worry and tried to find out everything she could about this Pregnancy Diabetes. On March 16 2003, he sent her in for the tolerence glucose test(3 hours of taking my blood) She was 28 weeks and the blood sugar was high 10.7. The problem with that was She was never contacted about her results until she was 33 weeks. My great Grandmother had passed away and the doctors were trying to get a hold of mommy that week to get her in to see the dietition, not listening when she told them her Nona died and she was not able to go to any appontments for at least 5 days. Her nona died from diabetes. It slowly destroyed her body. By the time mommy went to see the Dietition, Sars was a bad outbreak so it was forever to get in the hospital. She was 34 and 1/2 weeks, she was put on a diet, then had to record her sugar every day 2 times a day. then come back. She did this and went back again, only to dicover she had to be on isulin. So on MAY 14th 2003, she met with the nurse to learn about this and how to use it. Then On thursday may 15, mommy was to see her family Doctor, cause the week before she saw the OB/GYN. Her blood pressure was good. I was kicking like crazy and my heartbeat was perfect, according to the OB. But on May 15 the Dr searched for 20 minutes for my heart beat and couldnt find it. She reasured mommy that I might have been in an awkward position, but she can't do it in her office, she didnt have the good equipment. So she called the hospital and instructed them to let her and my daddy in for a stress test. They told the security guards at the front so they wouldn't be hassled about both of them comeing in. (again Sars was bad at this time).
By Mommy:
So after an hour of 4 nurses trying to find Nicholas' Heartbeat My OB was on duty and they called him in he also tried hard to find it, but I could feel him moving so I wasn't worried. He then sent me to the ultrasound where we waited 15 minutes. The tech. did what she does then said ok your sone. She didnt tell us anything. Chris watched his baby lying still not knowing yet what happened. He described to me how he saw the baby, he was smiling because we still were optimistic about this, I was not even thinking the worst, I knew nothing of still birth. It was now 7 o'clock at night and now we are starting to worry, we arrived at the hospital at 4:30 pm. My Ob finally came in with the first nurse that tried to find his heartbeat. They both sat on the bed by my side...
The Doctor said, I'm sorry but, the baby has stopped growing. At first I didn't understand and I felt a little stupid. Chris(fiance) asked him to repeat himself cause he thought, he missunderstood him. The doctor sighed with so much sorrow in his eye's and said I'm so sorry. I still see Chris's face in my nightmares. It was then I new what the doctor was saying. Our baby had died. I wanted so bad, to wake up from this horrible nightmare. He left us alone. We cried, and couldn't stop.
Chris tried several times to pick up the phone to call our parents but he couldn't speak. We contacted my parents finally, my mother hung up and they rushed over to the hospital. The Nurse and my doctor came in and told us, that we could have as many family and friends in as we wanted. They gave the security guards a list of names to let them in when they arrive any time and however many we wanted. The nurses at lakeridge health were wonderful to us. My Ob had told me I was already i labour and the kicks I ws feeling were not kicks, it was labour and the baby was floating.
My body temperature dropped and I started to shake uncontrolably, so the nurse's put 6 hot blankets over me to warm me up. It took half hour to slow the shaking down, but I was still shaking. Chris tried his parents several times, but they were not home, he finally left a message saying; he would call back it was important. It wasn't right to leave a message. But when he tried to call us not knowing we weren't home he called my sister, he said Chris left a message, he sounded very upset, do u know where he is, my sister between cries explained to him what had happend. He also rushed to the hospital only to realize he had no clue what hospital. When he showed up he told us he had gone to the Oshawa hospital first.(we laughed) The night was extremely long, I was hooked up to the epidural at 11 o'clock pm, and then given a sleeping pill to go to sleep. But I could not sleep no matter how hard I tried. The next day I was still only 1 cm dilated. They tried twice to induce me but it didnt work. Finally they gave me a two pills at 8:30 in the morning by 2:00, I was 9 cm dilated. My mother came as soon as she heard I was ready to deliver Nicholas. Chris's parents were also there. My mother couldn't handle seeing me in pain so she left the room. Chris's parents wanted to stay. At this point I didnt care, I was so worried about Nicholas and praying they were all wrong... All of my family waited in the waiting room. At 3:35 pm Friday May 16 2003 Nicholas was born an Angel and was taken into heaven. The nurse's checked him over, then dressed him in the outfit we bought him(he is wearing it in his picture page) Heather the nurse that took care of me all day(friday) wheeled the crib over to the bed with tears in her eye's, "Sabrina he is so perfect"(this didnt help). then at 4:45 pm the minister at the church came to baptize him. One thing that made this even more special was that our family was all there. Everyone left us for an hour to be with Nicholas alone. It was the hardest thing in the world to look down at my son to know I will never see him again. I will never get to see him grow. The nurse took pictures and unfortunatley only 5 pictures turned out clear enough to see him. We agreed to an autopsy, to hopefuly get some answers. The took 15 tubes (little) of blood. We had Nicholas in our room all night until I was ready to pass out, I felt bad and unsure of what was proper and asked them to take him and bring him back in the morning. The next day I decided I could no longer stay in the hospital, so we told the nurse I would be leaving around 2 pm. We spent our last hours alone with Nicholas. We said our Good bye's. The nurse and Chris's Parents took Nicholas, The last time we will ever see him. My girlfriend Showed up as soon as she heard. Her mother is a nurse at the hospital but she was off for vacation. i had called her to get her daughter's number because I absolutly could not remember it. When I was in the shower she had called and said she was on her way. She stayed until we were ready to leave. It was not right leaving the hospital without my son. It hurt more leaving empty handed. {I had also found out a few month prior, my best friend from hig school, was also pregnant and she was due on the exact same day as me. It was such a surprise. I wonder how things went with her. I havent seen her in several years. I ofund out by her cousin at her job. i ran into her.} The Funeral was May 26 because my parents were gone away, and we had the autopsy scheduled as well. It was very hard to go into the room with the casket. it was a white casket with fabric lined the ouside of it. It was so small... He was also put into a sky blue vault that sealed the casket in. They put a nice silver plate on the vault with his name ingraved. It has now been two and a half month since he died. It's still very hard but, I know i must carry on and not give up. Thank you for reading our story. Come back any time.
This story was written by: Sabrina and Chris