I was 17 years old and pregnant with my first baby. Everything was going fine until I went for my first scan. I had been getting a few pains, but I thought that they were normal. When I got to the scan room, I needed to go to the toilet but the lady doing the scan said that I could only empty a small amount, and that I should wait, but I really couldn't as I was getting these pains.
I went to the loo and then returned to lay on the bed. I saw my baby on the screen but with it being my first scan, I didn't know that it wasn't moving! The lady just turned around and said to me "I'm sorry but your baby is dead"!
I couldn't believe it,I was in total shock! She said that I needed a type of operation like an abortion as the baby was dead inside me! I couldn't come to terms with it all. She then sent someone in to talk to me and I was told that I had to go up to the ward straight away and that my boyfriend had to go home to get my things. I wasn't having it and I said that I wanted to collect my stuff myself and went. I gathered my things together still in total shock and got in the car! From the moment I got into the car the pains started getting worse.
It was then a mad rush to the hospital. Once at the hospital I was rushed into the ward and given a pessary, the nurse said hopefully I would have the operation before the pessary worked! Then a few hours later I wanted to go to the toilet, the nurse told me no and said if I wanted to go I had to use the bed pan! I refused and got up and made my way to the loo and no one could stop me! All of a sudden the nurse ran in with a toilet chair thing and made me sit on that! I felt a funny feeling and felt something come out of me! I looked down and saw my little baby! It was no bigger than my hand and had little black dots for eyes,a red line for a mouth and little bud arms and a pop belly! I screamed the place down! The nurse took my baby away and I never saw it again!
I had the d and c operation later and went home the next day! For weeks I was always crying and couldn't watch anything regarding babies in, it didnt help that at the time, my sister and best friend were only 1 week apart with due dates! I still get upset over the lose of my baby and even though i've pushed it aside I still think about it and I can still see my baby and what it looked like.
This story was written by Maggie.