| good god. i'm in my thursday class and this isn't as bad as i thought it would be. the only problem is this guy that i have in my class. he's been in one of my classes before and i just stopped going so i didn't have to hear him all 11 weeks. i told everyone that i left cause it was hard but i lied. it was because he was in it....naw. i'm lying. it was hard. but getting away from him was nice. he's talking about photography. he's one of these talkers. he always has to be talking and most of the time it's about how wonderful he is. and it kills me that he's talking about photography cause it's something that i know a bit about. if he were talkin about my girls, man, i'd be all up in it....he carries himself from topic to topic with sound effects and he'll say something like "see, here's a good example."....somebody shoot me. he's talking about color......"but yeah, i've been doing this for a while. i'm able to spot that kinda stuff from eye.....i learned a little trick for that too.... " like the freakin teacher who has been doing this over half his life is oblivious to that. he knows that. you are NOT high and mighty. i hate people like that. they talk about how wonderful they are and how much he knows......good god! will someone just shut him up?..... ok. i'll try not to think about it. i can get him out of my head...he has one of those voices that is fairly monotone. he's standing up with his arms crossed infront of the teacher who is sitting at a desk....you are not holyer than though......ok. hopefully he will leave for break soon. .... i have a headache behind my right eye and in my right temple.....he's talking about buns....blah, blah, blah......i hope this headache with go away before work. i wanna work today. i really do. i need the money but my head is killing me. he just started walking out the door and kept talking and then walked back in......he's gone. good. i didn't go to the trailer last night. my mom and i were supposed to go to my aunts but they called and cancled. stace and chandler wanted to eat dinner with us. just our two families together like at christmas or a birthday. they have all been crowded with others due to the wedding and all. but they had to cancel. oh, well, no biggie. i went to dinner with my mom and then went to wally world cause i needed a fitted sheet for my futon. mom treated me to it and she also got me some new tanks cause my old ones are dingy and i ruined most of them durring the move and painting the house. sad part is that we've been there a month and we're still not done painting. it's so freakin hot. maybe next week when i have a week off. i missed my girls. i hated not going over there but i knew that they were tired and would probably go to bed early and i felt that i needed to give them some space. for my benifit. so hopefully they won't say "you know, we need a break for a night" at a time when it would hurt more. i'm fairly strong right now. but it still killed me. i talked to audj and left a message for mary but no hugs kills me. no fist, no zrbtt, no "let me show you something". it's ok though, i get to see them today. i need a massage. i'm pretty much to the point where i don't even care if it tickles or that it's someone i don't know touching me. my shoulders are killing me. and my neck? don't even touch it cause i'll scream out in pain. i've almost used up my migrane ice patches. they work but i almost always have to sleep it off. can't do that today. i chatted with tabbs last night. i like talkin to her. she's sweet and perks me up. she makes me blush too, but that's good for me. i'm always paranoid about stuff and so i try to be prepared. blushing is a sign of not being prepared. so i guess in a way she's helping me out. her birthday is saturday. whoo, hoo! she invited me to her bar-b-q but i'm gonna stay around the trailer just in case nita pops som'n out early and i am needed to watch j, pace around nervously, or just sleep for others who will be too nervous to sleep. but i told her i wanted a raincheck. and who knows, i might even feel saucey enough to call her on surprise. same headache. i know what it is. it's a stress headache. it's in my neck and it's pounding in my brain......don't know what to do.....i don't wanna call in sick to work. i don't. well, i'm gonna surf for one more minute while the teach is setting up his puter. wish me luck. send any remadies and old wives tales on how to get rid of headaces to [email protected] i am willing to try anything. the last time i had one it lasted 3 days and the time bofore it was almost two days. i don't have that kinda time:) PEACE |
| i have a new song rumblin around in my head. i'm not gonna put it up yet cause i haven't figured it all out yet. i'm known it for what feels like forever but i just never 'listened' to it befor. i just thought it was a bueatiful song and then it hit me today and next thing i knew i was crying. it's a fairly happy song but i just......i want to sing this song and mean it. i want this song to happen to me. but i've got to think about it more before i tell you about it. well. that's all for now. i'm gonna chill for a bit. maybe a small nap. we'll see. PEACE i will, however leave you with the song on the next page. it's how i'm feelin right now. |
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