| didn't make it to school. i looked at my schedule last night and saw that i had marketing today. not gonna stay in that class. don't wanna and i'm not the biggest fan of the teacher so i'm not even gonna go to the first class. so i'm gonna watch the view and then go on to work. i need the money. my only other broblem is figuring out what other class to drop. i'm thinking i'll drop that marker class (the one that i just stopped going to). two reasons, the teach and i just don't really get along and the class has ALOT of homework. lord knows i'm gonna have enough of that as it is. i am going to keep the 'group class' though. it's where you work in design teams. ok. enough of that. i'm so over school. only been one day and i'm already over it. i'm kinda over a lot of things. i took my meds again today. first time in over a week. hopefully i'll feel a little bit 'normal'. i'm feelin lonely today. i left the trailer early last night so the girls could have some more time together. and i was kinda out of it. and by the time i came home, it was almost 9 cause i drove REALLY slow. i was hoping i'd come home and get on this thing and there'd be someone or something on here. like one of my many, many, many (sarcasm is a wonderful thing) or even an e-mail. but no. nothing. i need to.....i know what i need but it's not here. it's somewhere else and i don't know that i have the patience to wait it out. i guess we'll see. melissa's new album comes out today. i wanna go get it. i read some of the lyrics and heard some clips. i've heard one of the songs in its entireity. but audj will probably go get the album so i could go find the book. don't know yet. i only have 19 bucks and i need to get some school supplies. i'm going back to work today. i'm glad because i actually have a chance to work but i hate going back after not being there for a while. they all wanna know where i've been and why i haven't been there. and kent will come in and there's no getting around talking to him. he's gonna make a crack about my hair and i hate that. really, really, really do. tired. i couldn't sleep last night. seriously i couldn't. i tried. i was in bed all covered up and cozy at about midnight but i didn't even feel a bit tired till about two. i think i'm still getting used to sleeping not only on a futon but in a different place on the floor. i am closer to the wall now and i guess that's getting to me. i'm wondering about lunch now. i'm debating getting something and then going to work or i could wait and go to mcdonalds after work. i could do that. i haven't had a big mac in over a week. well, i guess that's it for now. i still have 20 minutes to get ready and rest a few minutes. so i might have time later tonight to write but i doubt it. so have a good day and tell someone you love them. PEACE |
| 11:15 at night. had an alright day. went to work like i said and then they let me go home early cause they didn't have anything for me to do. so i came home and met afew peeps on line. i imd myra. she said she'd get back to me. i told her it's ok that life just sometimes gets in the way. then andy imed me. boy THAT went well. let me tell you. i did most of the talking (as usual) but it was ok cause i was bored to start with. then audj imd me. then this other chick that i jsut met today. she's from oklahoma. so if you ever read this, 'hi, i had fun talking to you today and i hope to meet up with you again'. then i went to the trailer and things got worse. something happended and mary ended up doing the whole 'i'm not gonna leave you shpiel'. for reasons i haven't sorted out yet, i won't go into too much detail but i hope things get better soon. it's not a problem with andy or audj or anyone, it's just my head getting stuffed up. ok, i think i'm finished for now. i need a shower. night. PEACE |