| crazy stuff going on. my head is like a slaughter house. the left side of my brain hurts. literaly hurts. i know it's cause i decided to take my meds again last night. haven't taken them in like a week but i felt like shit all weekend and last night was rough. ROUGH. i didn't act on my thoughts but it doesn't mean i wasn't thinking it. man i was messed up. and when i 'm on the meds, i can't tell the difference. but when i'm not on them, those voices come back and scream at me. so i decided i could handle a few days of hell if i would eventually feel beter. don't even really know why i bother cause she's probably gonna change them again. these are helping with the paranoia but i'm still bummed and stuff. so anyway, things with mary are better today. she said she was just irritated. so good. i guess it wasn't me. jeannie is having a house warming party this saturday. i told her i would go. this is good for two reasons, mary and audj get a night to themselves. and i get to go party with a few cool people. don't know how i'll handle it cause i won't know some of the people there but i really like jeannie. so.... PEACE OUT |