| i'm home. not supposed to be. i was gonna stay the night at the apartment but decided that i needed some time to prepare to myself. and if i need to be strong tomorrow, i'm gonna need my rest. hold on....ok. we went out tonight and got tattoos. roman numeral 2's (II). ment a lot to me...that they wanted to get them and all. mary's court date is tomorrow. nervous. scared. lonely. i don't like this feeling. like i can hold on to her as tight as i can but they can still take her away from me/us. one more mother gone. not fair. i feel bad for audj. i know how much they love each other and to have a love like that....and then someone threatens to take it all away. sucks. not sure what to do except hope. pray. beg. pleed. whatever it takes. if steve shows up tomorrow.....i must control myself. i will. i have no choice....as much as i hate him for hurting her.......ok. i'm not sure what else to say. i'm exhausted and hungry but i'll get by for now. hopefully i can sleep. i'll leave you with the song that has been running through my head for days now. PEACE |
| One More Day LAST NIGHT I HAD A CRAZY DREAM A WISH WAS GRANTED JUST FOR ME, IT COULD BE FOR ANYTHING I DIDN'T ASK FOR MONEY OR A MANSION IN MALIBU I SIMPLY WISHED, FOR ONE MORE DAY WITH YOU ONE MORE DAY ONE MORE TIME ONE MORE SUNSET, MAYBE I'D BE SATISFIED BUT THEN AGAIN I KNOW WHAT IT WOULD DO LEAVE ME WISHING STILL, FOR ONE MORE DAY WITH YOU FIRST THING I'D DO, IS PRAY FOR TIME TO CRAWL THEN I'D UNPLUG THE TELEPHONE AND KEEP THE TV OFF I'D HOLD YOU EVERY SECOND SAY A MILLION I LOVE YOU'S THAT'S WHAT I'D DO. WITH ONE MORE DAY WITH YOU ONE MORE DAY ONE MORE TIME ONE MORE SUNSET, MAYBE I'D BE SATISFIED BUT THEN AGAIN I KNOW WHAT IT WOULD DO LEAVE ME WISHING STILL, FOR ONE MORE DAY WITH YOU LEAVE ME WISHING STILL FOR ONE MORE DAY LEAVE ME WISHING STILL FOR ONE MORE DAY |