| picked green for my color on account of two things....it's st. patty's day and i'm feeling spunky. went out this morning to go see my baby. kendra had her baby two night's ago. he's so cute and i'm gonna spoil him rotten. you just watch. he is a good lookin baby and he'll grow up to be a heart breaker. i can tell. he looks just like kendra except he has john's chin. oh, well, can't have it all. went out with 'andy' and whitters the other night. and here's the cool think. i'm cool with it all. can't explain it except that i'm tired of chasing. so there you go. she and i were acting the same way. both reacting the sameway to the other's actions so now it's all good. i decided that that was too stress full so i'm gonna take the initiative for a while. i'm the one who called her. four of us went and say that chris rock movie. then she and i stood outside her car and talked for a minute or two. then we agreed that i'd call her. so i waited all of a day and i called. i wasn't too nervous about it. so i'm ok. audj and i are getting back to normal. she had her sergury so i feel kinda bad for the girl. she had teeth ripped out and now she's on meds. dude. i feel for her. i still feel like i have to watch how i act with mary though. hopefully that will pass in time. right now, i'm going over to the apartment to do some painting. so yeah.....a lazy day for me and then i'll get back to homework tomorrow night. hopefully i'll get it all taken care of in time. PEACE OUT |
| later....... been doing some thinking today. not good, not bad...just thinking. i got to see my baby today. that's a good thing. i went over to the apartment to do some paintin and when i paint i always get to thinking. today it wasn't about any one thing in particular. i wanted to call up andy but i didn't have one thing to say so i didn't. i went out and got a new phone today. didn't cost me anything. i was due for an upgrade and i got a new one today. it's like my mom's which means that everytime she needs something done to her phone, i'll be the one asked to do it....oh, well. guess i deserve it. i left the apartment rather early for a saturday night. didn't even stay to watch mad tv. i know, surprised me too. i've just been so in love with sleep lately that i can't get enough of it. and there's nothing like sleep in your own bed. the rest of the house is there's. the apartment is there's. even my car is there's. my bed and my pillows are mine. all mine. nice to know that. been quite infatuated with pink ever since i saw the janet jackson icon thingy on tv. i mean i've seen her on the video at the club and all but....and i don't even go for froofy chicks. damn. don't know what it is. she even wears make up and stuff. totally goes against everything i know....ok, i'm over it. she's got moves. that's it. don't really know what else to say here. i just feel like rambeling. tomorrow i'm going to a friend's house warming party. whoo, hooo. i don't know how to act in front of these people. i really don't. i usually act all happy and the life of the party. usually safer than sitting there doing nothing. so i guess that's what i'll do. i'll just try and forget that i have one more week of hell left. hope i make it. can't take much more of this crap. seriously. i need a break. my new tattoo is gray. after the scabs fell of it stayed gray. fine with me. i just paid for a black tat and i got a gray one. my skin has been real dry lately. maybe that has something to do with it. saw this movie tonight called fight club. maybe you've heard of it. yeah. seems a bunch of people are wasting their money on this god awful movie. i liked the idea of squabbin. real squabbin. i wouldn't like to get hit in the face or nothin but i like the idea of squabbin. the rest sucked. i mean really sucked. ok. i think that's it. i got a few more things to do online then i'm gettin to bed. i'm tired. PEACE OUT |