| kody sat down on the avenue he tapped his feet, to the humming of the highway he watched the light shine down on the broken glass and thought I don�t got no reasons, yet there it is and there it was it was clear to all of us we kept this hat of broken dreams and we pulled them out, when we needed them around so please hand me the bottle, I think I�m lonely now and please give me direction, I think the hurt set in and I don�t feel nothing there�s a squeak hinge down on the back gate it lets us know if he comes around I don�t sleep that good anyway if you�ve never heard the silence, it�s a God awful sound so please hand me the bottle, I think I'm lonely now and please give me direction, I think the hurt set in and I don't feel nothing I don�t feel nothing, no I don�t feel nothing there�s nothing to feel good about here don�t much get down to the avenue I could drive, but it takes so much to get there don�t get off on all the broken glass, the cadillac scene, well I�ve seen a lot of good things die and I�m in an over emotional way so please hand me the bottle, I think I�m lonely now and please give me direction, I think the hurt set in and I don�t feel nothing |
| it�s nothing, it�s so normal you just stand there I could say so much but I don�t go there cuz I don�t want to I was thinking if you were lonely maybe we could leave here and no one would know at least not to the point that we would think so everyone here, knows everyone here is thinking about somebody else it�s best if we all keep it under our heads I couldn�t tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do but I�m lonely now, and I don�t know how to get it back to good this don�t mean that, you own me this ain�t no good, in fact it�s phony as hell but things worked out just like you wanted too if you see me out you don�t know me try to turn your head, try to give me some room to figure out just what I�m going to do and everyone here, hates everyone here for doing just like they do it�s best if we all keep this quiet instead and I couldn�t tell, why everyone here was doing me like they do but I�m sorry now, and I don�t know how to get it back to good everyone here, is wondering what it�s like to be with somebody else everyone here�s to blame, everyone here gets caught up in the pleasure of the pain, everyone hides shades of shame, but looking inside we�re the same, we�re the same and we�re all grown now, but we don�t know how to get it back to good everyone here, knows everyone here is thinking �bout somebody else it�s best if we all keep this under our heads I couldn�t tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do but it�s over now, and I don�t know how, it�s over now there�s no getting back to good |
| rough day...rough week. i'm so....beat down. things change so quickly, literally in a heart beat. you think you know someone, you think you're safe with someone, that's it's all good. but it's not. i only know two people right now that i consider safe...one of them is is good relationship cause i don't talk to her every day. maybe two or three times a week but i always know that it's all good with her and we always pick up right where we left off. she knows me and she's good to talk to. the other is safe cause i feel safe enough to sit in a room with her for any amount of time and not wonder why she isn't talking or wonder if she even wants me there. i'm not worried about stuff like that with her. she's like a glimps into my future. i see her and see that it's gonna end up ok even if it's not now.... she recently asked me to tell her what she is to me...still can't answer that. she's like the tattoo on my arm....can't verbalize it. i thought about it all day. thought about my relationship with her and others. thought about bailing for the better of her in the long run. i never wanted to be a burden to anyone. never wanted to be with someone who was thinking 'man, i wish she wasn't here right now'........ decided not to bail cause that's not fair to me. not anymore that what started all of this. so i'm gonna stay cause i got no problem. it's all someone else's problem that they're gonna have to get over. i've done nothing wrong. i thought for hours to see if i did anything wrong. no....all i ever did was love and support. they want time off, good. i need some time off to try and get things back to good inside of me. i feel like things have started all over.....like it all started last week insted of almost a year. i can't just blow it off cause then it would hurt more, so i got to do this gradually.... ok, i've been babbling but i feel better since i got stuff out. now i got to do homework. Peace |