| it's thursday. didn't sleep at all last night. i turned in early (about 11) and i woke up three or four times. then at about 4:30, i woke up. i have this citronella candle that i burn when i leave my window open. it's an indoor/outdoor candleand i leave it on my window seal with nothing around it. well, i didn't know that when it burns all out that it starts burning the clay bowl it's in. i woke up to 1 ft flames coming from this bowl. i tried to move the bowl closer to the open window so the smoke would go out the window and burned the shit out of my finger. so i was up for another hour trying to get the pain to stop. i purposly layed on my arm so it would fall asleep. not really any damage. it'll blister but that's happended before with a cig lighter in the car. nothing burned too bad, my blinds have black soot all over them in one place. thank god i woke up and i'm kinda glad that i kept my cool. i finally put out the flame with a mirror i keep by my computer so i can still watch tv in the reflection. i picked it up and put it over the bowl and waited. no oxygen, no flame. then i had to turn my fan on so all the smoke would go out the window. it's all pretty much gone. well, that's all. i guess i'm gonna take my meds again now. wish me luck. one love |
| ok, so technically it's tomorrow. it's 12:04 in the am and i'm working on homework. i'll finish it up in the morning. she e-mailed me today. said she had the day off and wasn't mad. said she wanted to call me to see how things were going but couldn't get up the nerve. crazy to believe that someone would have to get up the nerve to talk to me. i'm so easy to talk to. i guess i'm one to talk. i haven't benn im-ing her when i do see her online cause i don't have the guts and i don't know what to say. i e-mailed her back telling her abit about what's been going on. don't know if she'll respond and i'm kinda confused on how i feel about all of this. i'm still angry cause i got hurt but i guess i'm over it and not as mad as i thought. or i am but i'm hiding it. i don't know. my finger is bothering me so i guess i'll go now. it's white now, officially. one love. |