| havn't written in a while. let's start off with the snake. he wouldn't eat the mouse i went and bought. i couldn't watch. and when i bought it, i made the chick there but it in a box so i couldn't see it. then i made jesse feed the thing. i left the snake there over night and when i got back, audj and mary had put it in the extra tank. the store messed up and didn't give me a pinky. this was just a baby mouse. so the tank i had bought for the snake....mr. pinky jangles lives there. that's the mouse's name. i was gonna set the snake free but jesse wanted it so i gave it to him. so i'm ok with all of that. my dad and sister left for a stockshow in houston. i chilled with mom. it went ok and they'll be back on saturday. so that leaves me time with the girls. i have to go to the museum on sunday and they said they'd go with me. and if i get over a hudred bucks, i want to go get a tat while were in dallas. and all that brings me to tonight. she called me. good. i had thought she gave up on me again or i messed up again or something. she and whitters want me to go to village station on sunday night with them and a friend. good cause i love chillin with her. four problems. audj might have to go to the dentist and be on pain killers. i've only been to this club once and it was with her. will i associate this club with her from here on out? i just got over all that again like a week ago, can i do this all over again? will mary and audj and mary want to even go? will they be ok with all that? will they tell me not to go? will they say i told you so? i do want to go. i do. but i don't know that it won't kill me in the end. as of now i'm going but i'm gonna keep my wall up for protection. but i do like hangin with them. and for some reason i don't feel the same now that i did the last time. probably cause i know how it works with my life. last night i took some new meds that the doc gave me. i was up and high or drunk till after 4am. and then i finally fell asleep. only thing is when my moms woke me, i couldn't move. i hurt all over and i was DIZZY. i get dizzy a lot but not nearly that bad. so tonight i'm clean. good but bad in a way. when i'm not on my meds, i get fucked up and confused VERY easily. anyway, we'll see. i'll update soon to let you (myself) know what i have finally decided. peace out homies |