| i guess i should start off with happy valentine's day. i don't mean it but it's a nice thing to say so i said it. i hate today. i love and respect what it stands for but too many people give in to the comercialism of it. now i realize that i say this now and if i get lucky and have someone next year that i'm probably gonna celebrate but as for this year, no. and the thing of it is that i hurt more today. i know it has something to do with shrink yesterday and i don't get to see the girls today and that plays a part also. that plays a part cause my routine is changed and they get to do something that i can't be a part of. that hurts also. i've got class now so i'll get back in a few. ok it's been a few and here i am. the teach isn't here yet but i've got all my shit together so i'm good to go. tired. i'm exhausted. so tired. and i'm spending this evening with kendra. i'm taking her out to a movie and dinner or one or the other. maybe both. i don't know. and napster is shutting down so i guess i'll try to get a few songs before they're gone. all i really want to get is kd singing fever. shouldn't take too long. |
| you don't love me anymore in your heart, you're out the door it's getting harder to ignore that you don't love me anymore no you don't love me anymore |
| i just heard this song in the car. seemed appropriate. i'm sick of work. i mean it. it's a good job but i'm tired and i need a day off. i need a vacation. a day where i don't have to worry about anything. i don't have to be alone cause then i'd be lonely but i need to get away from all of this. i'm so stressed about everything. and after yesterday, my back is killing me. i'm serious. i think i pulled a muscle or at least that's what it feels like. i enjoyed hanging with na and going to see them in......? not sure where they are but mary and na are at a hair-cutting thingy and they can't come home in between so they have to spend two nights there. i'm ok with it. i like going to see them but....i don't feel like talking about it. it's hard. it's my own fault. i'm stuck and i suppose when i break one of these days, and i will eventually break, i'll talk to na about it. i say na cause that's the only place left to turn. the teach just got here so i'll get back at break. |