Love You the Way I Do
I gave my heart to you
I set my standards high
I laid my eyes on you,
I laughed and cried with you,
I told you my hopes and dreams,
My Love and Fears.
My tears I shed all over your shoulder.
In the end,
I came to see that you were
the only guy I could ever trust.
When I see you,
my face lights up with aspiration, and happiness.
When we talk, I can feel the load unload
with soothing words from you.
I have the feeling of love in my heart.
In my mind, I say "You don't mean a thing."
In my words, I say "You are just a friend."
But in the deep end of my heart,
I think of only you
When I tell you my expectations of a guy,
You tell me never to fall short of what I want.
But only one thing stands in the way -
You are a friend.
Can I still love you the way that I do?
I CRY
I cry myself to sleep,
hoping I won't fall in too deep.
Yet I fall so far,
it leaves a permanent scar.
and then I cry,
oh I cry.
I cry so hard,
and there's just more scars.
And those who know of my scars make them worse.
They tear and scratch, but not once call the nurse.
Even though my scars are on the inside,
you can see the physical pain,
And you can tell that my laugh just isn't the same.
And even though I live on,
to everyone else,
I'm already gone.
Im gonna draw a picture, A picture with a twist. Ill draw it with a razor blade, I'll draw it on my wrist. As I draw this picture, A fountain will appear. And as this fountain flows, My troubles dissappear.
It Feels So Good
Walking into her room,
Be sure to lock the door
For her own gloom
Fills from the ceiling to the floor
Opening her special drawer
And grasping her tools of horror
A knife will do for now.
She cuts into her arm
NOt understanding how
She inflicts any harm
It feels so good,
Because it hurts so bad
She just can't keep inside
What makes her feel so sad
Her hand will guide
Draw out why she's mad
And her cuts she will hide
To make her still look glad
No one would understand
All the pain she felt.
Slicing up her hand
Is the only way she dealt
It feels so good
Because it hurts so bad
Thinking of what they've said
Only knowing what they tell her
All the lies they've fed
Searching for a cure
For all the pain she felt
Harming her body
Is the only way she dealt
It feels so good
Because it hurts so bad
She goes into her room
To continue her self-inflicted gloom