I've been wrestling with that for a long time now, some of the things, most of the things I said were pretty mean, just....everybody else besides Andrew were just warm up rants.....that was just rotten. But still I HAD to do it....just.....I was gonna explode with anger if I didn't vent, and because of it I made a half-assed, half-thoughtout rant, aimed mostly towards Andrew.
think of this as an apology rant(I know it sounds sappy, friend-winning-over-y, but, once again, rants are about freedom of expression...so if you don't like it, FUCK YOU! :) )
Adam: the cockyness remarks......WHAT A JOKE! and hypocritical! I'm fucking more cocky than you'll EVER be! so stop trying! (just kiddin) as for the Sarah thing.....you said you would do anything for her.....I know the feeling, but sadly, the person I would have done anything for has left the mortal-realm and now resides in Ashley's body.......that Sarah........sure is something.........
don't feel bad for being honest, I'm glad you and Sarah were honest, without that, I would have never known I was being a total dick. I'm a Misanthropist, I hate this world and the feeble race of man that inhabits it. And I did care about when you and her broke up.....its just I don't know what I could have said,don't you remember? I stayed online trying to cheer you up, when I should have been doing homework(needless to say, I failed the assignment, stupid CLM) :)
Ashley: Ashley....I still hold-on strong to my rant towards you....but still I gotta say this....the last years Andrea was dying, her strengh waned, as well as her physical features, but you, you got more beautiful. Its uncanny the way you resemble her. Sometimes I mistake you for her, walking down the halls,same smile, same eyes. Gabreal doesn't understand, neither do many people. They don't know that I would have sold my soul to save her, I wish they could all understand how much I loved her. I still ask the question:"Why not me?" I still love her. I STILL WANT REVENGE FOR THE FUCKING SOCIETY THAT KILLED HER! I want this damn world to burn enternally. They took away one of the most genorous, caring souls on the face of this earth. She didn't even get out of high-school,never drove a car, never loved, never lived a full life. If only I could have saved her, but I'm dishonored, thus my alias-"Ronin" a masterless,honorless samurai. I just want to help you, and others, so that,maybe, just maybe, I can get my honor back. Tears of blood and sadness formed a wonderful, silent lake, swans and birds in water-games will call Andrea's name....Her name! (a pain that'll never go away)
Ronnie:..........so you say Brad's scared?
Lee: Ok.......I admit it........I like it when you touch me in weird places
Sarah: I just have a hard time interperating people, I don't know you that well....its a shitty excuse but......
ANDREW: I just want a better friendship