I am starting to see things for how they really are in the world. I do not understand the way society wants us to hide our flaws. Being flawed is what makes us human it is what makes us vulnerable and beautiful. We are supposed to act as if everything is fine, and that we are free of imperfection. Take a child for example, perhaps one of the most beautiful things about a child is their abilty to feel and be exactly what they are. If a child is sad, it will cry, if it is happy it will laugh. If a child is tired it will lay down on the floor and rest. Why are we so quick to cover up with make up and buy nice clothes and fancy cars? Its as if everyone tries to draw attention to material things so that no one will notice that they have nothing underneath it all. I think that people like hilary duff or britney are so successful because they lack depth. They are "perfect" or whatever and they allow us to ignore the "realness" in people. They are an image, many people dont like genuine artists because they are genuine and that is scary for people who are not ready to face themselves. Its so easy to be fake and to follow the crowd and to do things in spite of your inner convictions. I dont ever want to stop feeling, people always say i am so emotional, and i dont ever want to lose that. I embrace moments and i am true to my feelings and i let them go. I welcome suffering and pain and heartbreak, it makes me real. I am not afraid of feeling, because i know that thru it all i will emerge more beautiful and more human than i was before. I am flawed, I wont hide that. I am not a barbie, there are somethings wrong with me, and there is nothing wrong with that. I hope everyone learns to someday just be real. Who cares what other people think? They dont have to live in your shoes only you do. Who cares if someone else judges how you feel, just remember they dont know where you are coming from you have to blame it on their ignorance. They do not know any better. i have learned to see the beauty in people's flaws. We are all full of suffering and confusion and everyone has a beautiful story. Every person has roots and experiences that make them who they are..We can never know the depths of someone, even they may not know themselves. People often run from depth because it forces them to reflect on themselves. Who we are is such an amazing thing. Everyone is full of thought and emotion and expression and its just so incredible I cant even breathe sometimes. I want to hold on to each moment for as long as i can but then i think that there will be moments ahead. I want to live and experience and grow and i am ready. I am ready. I am ready.
