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  04/18/04                I woke up this mornig at 5 a.m. and hurried to work, to open the church for sunday morning service.  The day went by fast and everyone seemed to be in a good mood. The message was on the resurection of Jesus. I have ten weeks left to graduate the shepards garden program at the first baptist church. I wonder if they will actually let me graduate...  In the last 16 months I have witnessed alot of lies coming from the service station and it greives me. How they took advantage of me and even tried to hurt my reputation and credibility as a christian, told me everything about them and their church. I will forgive them, but I will never trust anyone that lies to my face and acts like they have done nothing wrong, and still professes to be a christian and an upstanding citizen of the community. But this is what they do for the most part. But they will never admit it. Not in a million years will they ever honestly and openly admitt they have decietfully treated someone very wrong. And the funniest thing is, God is seeing what is going on the whole time. This makes me think that maybe some of them really don't believe that there is a god. Maybe they really do think that church is supposed to be a business, instead of a place to worship and praise God.

          I gave my apartment up to save some money and re-establish myself with a new home in july, when I graduate. I am currently staying at the mission again, but I am enjoying myself for the most part. My health seems to be getting better. I haven't called my family in texas for quite a while. I've been thinking about my children alot lately, wondering what they are doing and if they are alright. I don't like the idea of them far off somewhere else and me not being there to protect them. I would like to relocate to tulsa in july. Then I could see my children again and possibly start seeing them on a regular basis. I wish I would have kept in touch all of these years. Now I am paying the price for that. I guess it was the way I was raised. I was never around my family while I was growing up, so I  became used to that type of lifestyle. A lifestyle of not keeping in touch with any of my family. It's a fact that things you experience when you were a child often follow you all of your life.

          I've been seeing people lose their loved ones all of the time lately. Alot of people passing away. Life is so short. That's why the ressurection is so important. Christianity is the only religion that teaches the ressurection. Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life. No-one comes to the Father, but through Jesus. I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't do drugs, I don't fornicate, but I really like to eat food.   
                                                               Selah:

                                                                                                                     


        

      




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