Monday, December 29, 2003                                 Whoa, its been a long time since I updated this thing. Its all because of Finals and my trip to the Philippines. I'll tell all about PI later hehe ;) ...for now I've got to back track on what happened before December 12. Alighty, well just like always I've been studying my ass off for my 3 Finals - one's for Molecular Biology, another for Cell Biology, and the other is for Econometrics. I think I aced the Econometrics one, but the other classes...I'm relying on the mean =/. I'm just glad it was over cuz right after I finished with those finals, I went straight to the airport heading for the PI. But dang, my family and I were in such a rush! I ended up not finishing packing all my stuff. My Mom was stressing over little things...I guess she's just too excited to go home. Hmmm what else is there to talk about...ah yes, something interesting came about accidentally around December 5 I think... Ok, well it started when I was hella bored and so I signed on on AIM and started looking at other ppl's profiles. There's this one screen name's profile (I have no idea how I got it in the first place) that, get this, logs every screen name that views the profile. O_o As you guessed it, my sn was posted under "People who viewed my profile" and I was like oh shiet... About 10 mins later, that person IM'ed me asking who am I. From then on, I chatted with this person till like 12 something at night. I found out she's a girl (thank god), 23 years old, pinay, and going to Southwestern College. Cool... She says she wants to meet me... whoa... I'll tell more later till then peace.

Thursday, November 27, 2003                           Happy Thanks Giving everybody! Anyways, my Thanks Giving was alright. My relatives came over for lunch, although a few of my cousins didn't make it =/ ...but yea all I basically did for the whole time they were at my house was watch Lord of the Ring: The Fellowship of the Ring. Its not that I haven't seen it yet, its cuz I wanted to see it again before the last part of it comes out. But wow, did I get stuffed! I ate a lot of ham and lumpia... good stuff. At around 5ish, my relatives wanted to go to Harrah's, so I went along. I didn't win unfortunately...its all cuz they didn't have my game - craps. Harrah's looked really nice, although it took like 1hr just to get there. I'd rather go to Viejas instead.

On the way home, something interesting happened. That same girl I'm chasing after IM'ed me on my cell (I signed on on my cell). She said Happy Thanks Giving, which was nice of her, and she said she's sorry for missing my call on Monday...but that's weird cuz I didn't call her on Monday...I called her on Wednesday. But that aside, before she IM'ed me I was about to call her and ask her if she could go with me shopping for a birthday gift. Just when I was getting all prepared to call her she IM'ed me. Funny isn't it? Anyways, so I asked her what she was doing on Friday. She said she got work from 12:00-8:30...that sucks. I told her I needed help on getting my friend a gift... she didn't really know what I should give to her. I wanted to chat with her some more, so as soon as I got home, I signed on... to my disappointment, her screen name didn't show up which could only mean she blocked me. So, in the end, I have to rely on myself to get my friend a gift. Hope it's not crazy up in the malls.

Wednesday, November 19, 2003                           Today was neither a good day or a bad day. First of all, around lunch time me and my friend were about to go and get some free food somewhere on campus. It's free for commuters and hehehe i'm really a hard core commuter. Free food was pretty uplifting for the start of my day. Then, totally unexpected, the girl I asked out and got dissed calls me up and wants to have lunch. So we meet...I kept my cool like nothing happened. I had to ask her about why she didn't call me back or get my message that I left on Monday and Tuesday...so I did. She gave some excuse about leaving her cell at her cousin's house so that's why she couldn't call me back. A believable excuse, but I knew she was straight bull shitting. If that's so, then why did she pick up a few seconds later after I called with my number shown? To be honest, I was mad at that point, but I held it in. Something tells me that she lied so I won't get hurt... So me, her, and my friend went to the place where they were giving out free food. We stood in line for about 15 mins and chit chatted. After we got our food, we went to the lounge and ate. I didn't talk to her as much cuz I was still hurting...When she had to leave to class, I didn't walk her there nor did I give a hug to her as before. With all that aside, I got FFX-2!!! =) So, my day basically balanced out.

Tuesday, November 18, 2003                           Damn, what a sad, sad, sad day...I played a fool again. Today was supposed to be the day I take the girl I asked out...didn't happen obviously cuz otherwise I wouldn't be bloging this shiet today. This is really messed up, and I mean MESSED UP. On Monday, I gave her a call to plan it out and stuff...all I got was her voice message. Ok, fine. So I left a message to call me back. That didn't happen. Today I called her up like 2-3 times and this time I left a message asking that if she still wanted to go out. No call from her at all...I'm all thinking "that's weird, I asked her out and she said she's free on Tues and Thurs after work..." I don't understand at all... My friends up in UCSD know about this and they said that I should call her again one last time and if she doesn't answer, call her again on another phone. This is a test that maybe she's just busy or something or her cell is messed up. So I did...first time with my cell...I got her voice message. I waited for about 10 secs and called her again with my NUMBER BLOCKED. Low and behold she picks up her cell after 2 rings. I hung up afterwards...I felt like shiet. Its clear now that she's avoiding me. My friend told me that she's playing with my head. I don't think so... I need to know if anything, WHY did she said not reject me in the first place and not lead me on the way she did? Why? Tomorrow is the day we usually meet up for lunch... I don't think we'll meet up anytime soon... (picking up the shattered pieces of a broken heart)

Friday, November 14, 2003                                       Ok, damn there's a lot of stuff that happened to me. My life is going through a drastic change...first of all last Monday, my friend got me an application to EB games at UTC mall. I filled it out today and went straight to EB after school. I went to this guy behind the counter and gave him my application thinking he was just a worker, but it turns out he is one of the managers there. 0_o What's totally unexpected was that he looked at my application on the spot and then afterwards he interviewed me. During the interview, I was really intimidated by him cuz, even though he claims he is a pretty laid back guy, he seems to expect a lot from me. He said "I expect 1) that you talk to customers, 2) that you talk to customers, and 3) that you come to work." geeezzzz. He also mentioned that training would be 15mins only with a small booklet. I think I'm hired but dang...crazy...I'm kinda scared...But that's not my whole day yet! Just about 30mins ago I gave a call to *ahem* the girl I'm interested in. Just to let you guys know, I made a vow to my bro that I would ask her out to dinner or something today. But anyways so I did asked her out and she said she's free after her midterm on Monday. I was like "really?!", cuz I had my mind set that she would reject me. Guess I'm wrong haha! =) Can't wait till I take her out. Now the problem remains...where should I take her out???

Friday, November 7, 2003                                      Dang, stupid fire...hope everyone who's a victim is doing ok. Anyways, this whole week was basically studying hardcore cuz I had 3 midterms - one on Monday (which I did really bad on =( ...), one on Wednesday, and one on Friday. I'm happy its just over. Man, it was funny though cuz on Thursday, I was studying with my friend's gf at her dorm. My friend at that time was upstairs studying too, but at the same time listening to Michelle Branch "All You Wanted" over and over and over again. It was nonstop. Not only that, he was singing too hahaha! =D. Reminds me of some one that I know ;) . Today, I felt damn proud of myself cuz I did something I would have never thought of doing until my bro pressured me to do so. I don't know whether it did any good...but hell at least I tried and hopefully put my message across. Whatever the outcome, I hope I'm not moving too slow...The worst thing that could happen is that I would be too late and she could be already taken. We'll see on Monday or Tuesday...

Wednesday, October 22, 2003                                  Wow. My b-day last Friday was coooool. Me and a couple of my friends and family went to a karaoke place. Singing + Drinking + Friends + Family = GOOD TIMES. I got wasted that night though, and the after effects wasn't great at all. My dad saw me got carried to the couch by my friends when I came home and he thought that he needed to call an ambulance or something hahaha! I remember that I stayed up till 4am playing Max Payne 2 trying to get rid of that feeling of yaking. My friend took embarrassing pictures of me drunk...I'll try to get them from him and post them up for your entertainment heh. Thanks everyone for celebrating my 22nd b-day with me =). Anyways, today was a good day. I guess lunch time was my highlight of the day...afterwards I tried studying but I couldn't really...I kept daydreaming...

Saturday, October 11, 2003                                  Ahhhh damn it! Ok, I'm fed up and I have to let it out because it has been going on for too long. At work there's this cashier that I used to just tolerate. Now, he's becoming an annoyance and someone I don't like at all. You see...he's been constantly hovering over my bagging partner (aka my old flame) like a freaking fly to garbage. I'd swear he's like flirting with her and this guy is like in his fifties, married and has his own kids. Whenever he can't find her, he'll ALWAYS ask me and my other bagging partner, "where's my daughter?" Yea, he calls her his daughter, weird. What the hell! It's not like we know her whereabouts every time. Why doesn't he look for her instead? On top of that, he'll buy her food from time to time and (get this) even text her on her cell at night and stuff. Just today, he gave her his keys to his car and offered her a ride home. There must be something going on between those two...maybe they're more than "father" and "daughter"...the mere thought makes me sick. I'm not the only one who thinks this way. I heard from my sources that they were seen going into his van during lunch break one day. He covered the windows with blanket and God only knows what they did in there for 30mins. I know it's not hard evidence, but you've got to wonder why this guy is always so "attached" to her...did she seduced him or done something to him? If so, I wouldn't be surprised at all.

Monday, September 29, 2003                        Whoa...the first day of fall quarter really started off pretty interestingly. It started off with me arriving at school early in hopes of getting a locker (carrying around books isn't fun). When I got to the place to rent out lockers, there was a very, very, very long line and at that point I felt I was assed out in getting one. Out of nowhere, I saw two of my friends right in the front of the line! They hooked me up with a locker that I could share with them. Woo hoo! Then afterwards, I went to my first class that started at 11:00am. Again out of nowhere, I met up with a friend that I haven't seen for a long time. We had a nice conversation; we talked about how we hated UCSD and especially the fond memories we had when we were working at the same place. We planned to meet up for lunch, but unfortunately we didn't cuz I couldn't get a hold of her on my cell. No signal -_-; . But then out of nowhere, I met up with two of my friends including some other dude I just met and formed a "lunch group" hehe cool. After about an hour of chilling and talking shit about the Chargers, I left and went to my class at 2:00pm. I sat down at a desk and looked around...somehow the class looked unfamiliar to me. Then I saw the professor coming in and that's when I realized I was at the wrong class room! hahaha Wow what an interesting day ^^.

Friday, September 19, 2003                                                 Aye, the fall quarter's gonna start soon -_-. Oh well, my summer's been great...probably the best summer I had so far. Now I gotta go back to being responsible instead of being a lazy bum hahaha. Yesterday, I went to SDSU...I was a SDSU student for a day heh. I did some "sight seeing" ;) . I also chilled with some friends and looked at the career fair there. I'm hoping to get into this intern position one of the companies are offering. I know I've been trying to get into one for the past...well it's been awhile. I HOPE this one works out. Anyways, I've posted up my first Gamecube review for Resident Evil. Check it out. Plus, there's new fan art up. Oh, and here's something pretty interesting for all those Sailor Moon fans. http://www.hicbc.com/tv/sailormoon/ In Japan, they're gonna have a live action Sailor Moon TV series airing, I believe, on Oct. 4 at 7:30 am. Wow O_o !!! Sailor Mercury is a cutie.

Tuesday, September 9, 2003                                                 Alight, I'm in a angry mood today. I can't believe what just happened when me and my friend were playing tennis. We were practicing our swings for awhile and then I go and hit the ball outside the court. I went to get the ball back when this Filipino middle aged guy walks towards me and asked me if I wanted to play doubles with him and his friend. I said, like the kind person I am, "no, that's ok." Thinking that he understood me and that we were playing a singles game, we went back to our game. Moments later, the guy asks again if we want to play doubles. My friend said no in a polite way. Good. Suddenly, out of nowhere these guys came into our court and started playing...I was like wtf! Didn't you guys heard what we said?! Me and my friend looked at each other in disbelief...I could tell he was mad....so was I. I wanted to say something but they were like "uncles." I held my anger in as we played doubles with them...I know that they wanted to kick us out of the court. One of the guys asked if we were Filipino. Sounds like an innocent question, but if you think about it, its not. If we said we weren't, then they wouldn't have treated us like the way they did. I had a feeling they were treating us like kids. What's even worse is that when the game was finished, I told them that I was missing a ball. Neither one of them responded. ARGGGHHHH, they ignored me. My friend said fuck it and just leave them be...NEXT TIME I WON'T BE SO NICE!!!

Wednesday, September 4, 2003                                                                  Ok, shiet I'm bored...its now 12:30am...might as well make an update. My Labor day weekend was pretty cool. I bought some nice clothes and some nice boots at an outlet. But damn, now I'm kinda broke...>_< I need an internship so I could quit that "job" I've been in for the past 2 years. Anyways, today I went to school as usual. They showed us this film about some British construction workers who are living in poverty just trying to get by. Its an ok movie...its weird because there was only about 3 actors in it and the rest were just real people. It was sorta like a documentary and a fictional story mixed together. The film is called "Riff Raff" for anyone who wants to see it (I doubt it though). But damn it, today they gave out the questions for the 8-10 pg final essay. Its due this Monday!!! -_-; I don't know if I should work this weekend or not...I could work on the final paper instead...but then again I need money...

Tuesday, August 26, 2003                                                                        Haha, funny stuff happened at work on Sunday. I spent some time chit chatting with the old Filipino folks during lunch break. They've been telling me stuff that what USED to be back in their days...stuff like they only had one boyfriend or girlfriend which ended up being the one they married. They mentioned how our generation bring a lot of drama into our lives by going into many relationships and taking them too seriously. Also, they said that girls at their time weren't kissed at all till they're engaged or something...whoa. My "uncle" said and I quote "things are changing...whether for the good or bad I don't know." hmmm is it? Anyways, after that my "uncle" then started to brag about being used to be all fit and all. He said that he could pick up and hold one of his legs and jump with his other leg over the other he's holding. Sounds hard, but he did it...then he tried it again and he fell! hahahah! The sound he made on the TILE floor...it must've been painful. He played it off though haha! I never knew that the old folks are pretty interesting people once you talk to them.

Tuesday, August 12, 2003                                              Okay, for damn reason I'm sick...with the coughs and especially the sore throat. It hurts when I swallow...ughhh damn it... Maybe I got it from that last bon fire I went to on Friday...but hell even if I did, it was worth it. I got to talk and reminisce about High School and Elementary with my friends. (sigh) Has it been that long? Summer school seems to be alright. I'm taking this upper division Vis Art class (Vis 152 for all those UCSD ppl). Everyday so far, it's just lecture for about an hour and then we watch a film for the rest of the class time. The thing I'm worried about is the midterm essay (5-7pgs) and the final paper which is (8-10 pgs)!!! Anyways, I've posted up Comic-Con 2003 pics in the profiles section. Go check it out =). The links section will be fixed up and so will the reviews section soon...Oh yea, I'm currently playing Silent Hill 3...its hella scary!

Saturday, August 2, 2003                                                                                         Ah shit, my days of doing nothing is coming to an end...I got summer school starting this Monday. At least I'll get to do something productive hehe. Anyways, the latest reviews are fixed even though they are out dated (Silent Hill 3 is coming out soon!!!). The rest of the reviews are still under construction unfortunately...Oh, check out the profile section, sign my guest book and tag my chatter box =). Hopefully, they'll work if I did the code right. I'm still working on posting those comic-con pics =P And one more thing...I finally got over 1000 hits ever since I transfered from freeservers (beginning of summer 2002) yay!!! Check back soon.

07/24/2003: Yesterday, I shadowed two dentists up near plaza blvd. Interesting stuff...there's this one patient I saw who drinks gallons of soda and smokes almost daily. Not surprisingly, her teeth were all screwed up with little brown stuff on them here and there. She had to get 2 teeth pulled out (aka extraction) b/c one she broke and the other was no longer attached to bone...it took the dentist a really long time to pull the second one off - she was struggling haha!! There's also this really fat obese man with his teeth all jacked up too. He said something like this, "hey, doc did ya find a lot of plaque?" The dentist replied,"ohh, I found a lot more than just plaque!" hahahah! His extraction was really easy, though. Shadowing the two dentists was a great experience and I want to do that again.

Ok, today was pretty cool. My long time buddy from high school treated me out for lunch at Claim Jumpers. We ordered 2 appetizers and boy were they huge! We couldn't finish them so we put them on trays for take out. Shiet, now I have to treat him out sometime...haha. After that, we went to Fashion Valley mall to check out some store where only rich ppl go to. A freakin blouse was like $1150!!! Crazy. My friend wants to buy these dress shoes, which are really nice, but are like $300 something...he's high rollin hehe! But yea, going to Fashion Valley brought some good memories, but brought some bad ones too...This was the first place I took out that one girl to...but now every time I do think of her I get angry inside. If I see her at work...I don't know how would I react..."ignorance is bliss" they say...now I know what they mean. Well, I'm still working on posting those Comic-con pics. Till then...peace

07/21/2003: Comic-con was tight! I got to see Halle Barry and Anglie Jolie! Too bad they didn't sign autographs...I didn't buy much as I thought I would because they didn't have the evangelion model that I was dieing to get. Sux. The masquerade was great! All the ppl who dressed up got guts to go and show the crowd their costumes. Some got boo ed hahaha but that's messed up. Anyways, my cousin knew someone who participated in that and when it was her turn to show her costume, we cheered her on! She dressed up as Yuna from FFX. I'll post up some pics of the Comic-con soon...

Ok, I've got to say this cuz this really means a lot to me. When I tell my problems to ppl...problems dealing with relationships...they gave me the time of day to listen and give me some advice...and even if I refuse to listen they still won't give up on trying to point out the things they want me to know...its cuz they care for me...my friends, co-workers, ppl I don't really even know, and especially my family...its surprising sometimes for me cuz I don't expect so much from them, but it feels great that I know that they are there for me...I want to say THANK YOU for everything guys and I won't forget this as long as I live.  -RJ2

07/14/2003: Whoa, a lot of interesting things happened over the past three days (fri, sat, sun).

On Friday, I played some REAL tennis with my bro's gf. We ended up playing against this old pinoy guy and this one kid. We won =). Later that day, we planned out a bon fire at Coronado beach...but it ended up being canceled again grrrr. All the fire pits were already taken...it was funny cuz the wood that me and my friend brought we just dumped on the beach and ran off haha! So since it was canceled, I just went bowling with some high school friends. It was 4 girls vs. 4 guys and you should know who would win haha! Yea, it was fun.

On Saturday, I went to work as usual...it was emotionally tough...I saw the scar on her wrist and I couldn't stop staring. She wasn't bull shiting at all...its all because of me and what I did...y do such a thing to yourself? Anyways, after work I went to my friend's cousin's b-day party. I saw a couple of friends I haven't seen for awhile...there was a DJ and everything, but sadly no one danced. I drank some wine coolers, ate some good food, it was cool. Happy belated B-day Paul!

On Sunday, I went to church at 7:00am. Afterwards, I went to Jack in the Box for some breakfast. How come there's always a lot of old Filipinos hanging round there? Strange...Worked till about 2 o'clock instead of 5 as usual because I was invited to another b-day celebration. My other partner decided to leave early too, and so she was left by herself to work with the old folks. Before I left, she said she won't forgive me...for what I don't know...At around 6, I went to TGIFs to meet up with the b-day girl and company. It was like a freakin high school reunion! I felt awkward and out of place because I was conversing with ppl I never really talked to in high school. Got stuffed there hehe! After that, we went to D&B. I bought the b-day girl shots of liquid cocaine and kamikaze. But dang, she could drink! When I left, I heard she was faded and so was my cousin haha. Damn it, I wished I was there to see them act like fools =D. Good times.

07/10/2003: ahh, today im just trying to keep myself busy as much as i can to get my mind clear of things...i watched Old School which was hella funny! "BLUE..you're my boy!" haha! Played some tennis with my friend and found out we still suck...oh, and i watched a couple of episodes of GTO live action series. Its interesting cuz its almost the same as the anime series, but alittle different. Tomorrow I'm going to a bonfire with a bunch of friends I haven't seen for a long time. It better not be cancelled!! Anyone who wants to come, stop by at Coronado beach! Hope it'll be fun! haha didn't think i'd be bloging on my web page but anyways...

07/8/2003: ...dang what a depressing day...i got an e-mail from the girl i mentioned before...not good :'( Things sometimes don't work out as you want them to be...i see her on the weekends and we work so close to each other, but yet right now she's so far away. You know that song by boys II men "Its So Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday"? Yea, its been playing on my mind and it wont go away...but i gotta look at the bright side of things. My friends and especially my family are there for me and they made me feel better after all of this...thx everybody...I'm staying strong.

07/7/2003: Ah yes finally! I've completed my new layout. Whew~~ (wipes sweat). Yea, i've finished another year of college and trying to enjoy my summer. I've been doing jack shit haha! Well, a lot of things happened in my life and i've been going thru ups and downs lately. Its all because of this girl that entered my life...will it turn out for the better? Only God knows...right now i'm staying strong. Anyways, look around but beware that the reviews are under construction...unfortunately, there's no flash yet...i'll get to that. But n/e, Comic Con is a coming!! Can't wait =). Halle Barry and Angelina Jolie (drool)!!